I decided last night that I’ve had enough. I just cannot deal with my education teachers any longer. I cannot deal with the terrible education program. I booked an appointment with my advisor, but the earliest day she had was on the 20th. I’m not sure how I’m going to manage, but I guess I have to.
I was wrongfully failed on an assignment, which is causing me to fail the class. I was berated by my professor during class. I saw my methods professor and the practicum teacher attack one of my classmates and made her cry. They expect us to read their minds. Nothing we do is right. We are not guided by our professors. It’s the most unsupportive thing I’ve ever encountered.
I’m hoping that I can just finish my degree in education, but not get certified to teach. I do not want to be at my placement anymore either. My mentor teacher is just not helpful, no matter how many questions I ask and no matter how many times I remind him about things that I need from him. The students are good kids, really. But most of the time it feels like they are an afterthought of what my education program demands… and that’s not what it’s supposed to be like.
I guess teaching just isn’t for me. I mean, I knew I didn’t want to be a teacher in the first place. Being a school librarian is my dream job, but this just isn’t worth it to me. I’m losing sleep. I’m losing my mind. I’m so depressed. I feel gutted. I guess I’ll just forfeit my dream and work in a public library or something.
So it goes.
Edit:
I sent my advisor an e-mail. Hopefully things get better and we can work out some kind of plan. I’m just done with teaching.
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