um. Pat, dance, wish. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

i remember. one of the last things i talked about w/ Pat was that i was going to recover. and. then I didn’t for awhile and I felt bad. he would’ve understood. but now here I am approaching Wk 2 [on thurs.] of Month 2. i mention this bc. um. My sister’s currently taking ballet and she told me she wished she’d told our grandmother. who taught dance for 40 yrs. in littleton. but at the same time. i don’t know that our grandmother would’ve been aware. i mean she was on morphine and she hadn’t had anything to eat or drink in. over a day, so. god this shit........it’s not real. ya know? i’m remembering so much of what she told me what we talked about........um. i don’t know.........