4:20
The last few days have been slowly getting worse as a depression storm hits landfall in my brain and heart. Whenever I start to feel this way, all I want to do is just lie in bed and sleep. Sometimes I wish that I could put myself in a coma for a little while although it wouldn’t solve anything it just sounds good. I feel so tired and not physically but mentally and I just want to rest. I still believe I have an angelic soul, another thought came to mind as proof, I looked up what the bible had to say about alcohol and found out that it is a taboo. It goes along with my idea of being an angel because whenever I get drunk the next day I get so very very sick and its not just a normal hangover. This is even more proof of my angelic soul’s influence over my human body however the human mind can sometimes prove too powerful and takes over the will of the soul. That is why I have bad thoughts sometimes, why I get so angry etc.
I don’t consider myself a very religious person but to be honest, everything I feel makes so much sense to me and I believe I will be rewarded in the afterlife for my extreme struggles on earth. I also feel I deserve this depression because of the way I act alot which includes being so selfish, I feel that my human side is so corrupted that I deserve to be in so much pain. yet of course I am so tired of fighting it.
Tonight there is a midnight release of wwe 2k16 and I cannot wait, I will go and get it and play most of the night probably.
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