Overwhelmed in Plan B

As the week goes on my nrg level seems to dwindle more and more when I should be proactive. I did get some card board boxes to start packing non important stuff like books. I am going to get rid of some things. Tired of dragging around shit....
I’m tired. I am sure with allegies flinging thru the air with the greatest of ease this moving thing and the new job starting I am feeling it and it dosn’t feel good.
This couldn’t be worse timing if it tried. I lost Casie Marie 2 weeks ago tomorrow, the move and the start of a new job. Then I have Sharon riding my ass telling me what a huge mistake I made moving here. It’s too much. But now here are some good things and too and I have to keep looking that way so I don’t get so lost in the bull shit. As of this week there are no apt. whats so ever here. to rent. at. all. So when they say things happen for a reason they do I just have to wait to find out why I am being thrown this curve ball. Thank gawd I found that apt. when I did. There is nothing on zillow. nothing. So that is a good thing. There paying for my moving expenses - no choice there. I just have to stay focused and not look at being over whelmed. That for me is hard to do but I will learn to focus on the now. I swear I have a touch of a.d.d.
Everything will work out it’s just getting to that process of working out that gets me. My sleep has been a joke. Ugh. Put a fork in me - I’m done.