WARNING SEX TOPIC
8:10 PM
The last few days have been great to me, I have felt pretty happy and had a lot of fun just sitting at home watching stuff on youtube and playing games. When I am happy I feel like I don’t want to write in my diaries so I just ignore them but I decided I had to talk about something so....
My Sex life, I really don’t have one and I came close at one point (this was before I was on medicine) but my anxiety took over and I panicked and left and at this point I regret it. Anyway I have this store next to were I live called Doctor Johns, so I started feeling pretty horny and I started watching some videos but decided It wasn’t enough so I went over there to look around and bought some things, the only stuff I will admit to buying were condoms and a pocket vagina/butt. So I got back home and got into watching some vids and even reading porn literature. I put on one of the condoms and pull out my pocket vag, since I’m gay I go the other way and not only for that reason the vag part was pretty tight......... Anyway needless to say I have never orgasmed like that in my entire life, I literally reached a new height.
About my anxiety, while I was at the store, it felt so awkward I got so anxious that I started to have a denationalization/derealization episode and this happens when I get super super anxious, and I was checking out while literally my mind was trying to separate from my body and everything just felt so unreal, I just wanted to hurry up and get out of there because it’s not an enjoyable feeling.


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