Hi there. I'm another past OpenDiary blogger that decided to move here. I don't write much but a lot of things have happened in my life recently that I have been thinking of writing about for memories sake and for stress relief.
I'm in love with someone who is in jail. We met three weeks before he got arrested. So we knew each other at least before he was in jail. My boyfriend has Bipolar Disorder and was not on his medication, was abusing alcohol and weed, and pretty much was in the throws of psychosis before he was arrested. It is a bit awkward to admit that I was getting to know someone while they were extremely loopy...there were many instances that should have made me want to run away and never speak to him again. But I grew up around Bipolar and mental illness. In fact, I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and Bipolar type II. Weirdly, I wasn't afraid of him. There was something about him that I really liked. I really enjoy being around him.
I visit him every week and the third time I visited him I told him that we are boyfriend and girlfriend now..it was easy for me to be assertive like that because he was chained to the table (that's a joke). Despite the limited visits and him being incarcerated, we really enjoy each other and I feel like I have never been closer with another man in my life like him. We talk on the phone all the time, it is almost as if we're dating in a traditional way and I think it has helped us learn more about each other. I really care about him and he makes me laugh so much. He even thinks I'm funny which is awesome because I don't know if a lot of people do.
I really love him and his adorable face. I realized a while ago that I can't see myself being without him and I'm surprised that I almost settled with my ex boyfriend instead of looking for something else. I'm so glad that I found him. I hope he never leaves me.
Before this gets too sappy for one entry, I'll end this first entry. He won't be in jail for long..we're still waiting to go through the process but thankfully he did not make such a huge mistake and won't be sent to prison for years and years. He's also been on medication and is doing extremely well, he's very coherent and less manic. I'm really proud of him and the progress he's making with bettering himself. He deserves to recover and to take care of himself. He is also taking responsibility for his actions and actually admitted that he has a problem with alcohol, which is a really big step for anyone who has alcohol problems.
Anyways thanks for reading...I know it's hard not to judge since this is a weird situation, definitely the weirdest situation I've ever been in. But he is really sweet and wonderful...and so freakin adorable.
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