Early sunday a.m. in Plan B

Listening to Adult Alternative on Brighthouse. The music is good and it never ever stops. Blessing right there. I took care of some one this a.m. easy visit then home. Walked the Romerz and changed clothes and went to get my hair done. Needed bad. Was getting on my nerves. Met Kel and she was wonderful. My hair is really short but good. I can play with it more just add clay ( litterally ) and wella. I even died it a lil lighter blond not much and only temp. For some it’s temp for me longer. Anyway I can do more with it and no longer have to tuck behind my ears. Then she told me where she lived. And here she is my neib no shit walking distance. So instead of going to the shop just go to her house and give her the $ under the table and mayby cheaper. Wella.
Now here comes the hard part. I put Casie Marie Boo- Boo Head down to sleep on wed. since then I have been “busy” with bullshit but still busy and now it is sinking in. Not that I would have done things different it is just more noticeable that my girrrrly girl isn’t around. at. all. My heart is heavy. My soul has an empty spot. I miss the shit out of her. I colllected all the pics of her and lite a candle for her on the table I have. She was such a character.
After a bubbles she would love to lay in clean soft sheets and with a pillow of course on the couch. She was so loved. I miss her fucking much. I’m sorry I cuss alot when I can’t describe in detail how I feel and right now fuck sounds pretty damn good. Or as Dad would say ” Fuck the Motherfuckers” that there best describes it.
I am glad it is early early sunday a.m. We had a good rain earlier but not enough to make a difference.
Here is a lil diddy that is good…I live in an old old building. Built like a brick shit house. Nothing is going to penetrate this bomber. Anyway in the hallway ( much longer than the one I had in the house) has a “medicine chest” no clue to why. To make a long n boring story short when the inspector came in fri. he opened it. I cleaned it out and it pretty cool. I love old. I hate everything brand spankin new. I want something with history and trust me this place has history. Thank Gawd. Not going to waste tomorrow tired. Today was just kind of eeee - wah.
I love house hunters. I binge watched that. They had on Chicago. No wonder it is the most city with the biggest growing because it has so much too offer. If it didn’t have snow and winter and cold I would be there in a heart beat. It is cheaper than N.Y. and they aren’t as pretenious or mean as N.Y. and housing is cheaper. But now that I am a southern girl there is no way that I am heading north unless it is summer and warm. I am a classified wimp and can’t help it. sigh.