Okay, I realize how awful I've been at updating. With the departure of OD, and the fact that I hadn't written an entry on there in ages either, I just felt the lack of desire or even interest to update here.
I am sad that Open Diary is gone. Forever. I mean, it will never be back... And I know I never utilized the convenience of writing a simple entry just to say hello to all of my bookmarks and keep them updated with my dull life, the fact that I have lost touch with a good majority of them will suddenly hit me right it the heart from time to time. Woe is me.
Why I'm having such a hard time dealing with the loss of OD is beyond me, maybe because of all the time I spent pounding away at my keyboard through my teenage angsty years, or the stories of when I so desperately fell in love... I'm glad I had the chance to download my diary so I'll always have those documented moments at my disposal, but at the same time, I simply cannot share them anymore. Part of me is glad that I have a chance to start over, with some of my old OD pals, but another part of me doesn't want to let that part of my past go... Not that I have a choice, or HAD, rather.
When I first started this account on prosebox, I tossed around the idea of remaining anonymous... and maybe I still will to some extent, but I know there are some of you out there that know who I am. I'm okay with that. I'm okay with letting the people of my past know my unguarded thoughts while allowing the people of my future know the real me, but I get to pick and chose who will get the opportunity to know exactly who I am behind my thoughts, quirks, and fears.
I am going to try to update more often, and I know I said that on OD time and time again, but this is practically a new start. I have no reservations, no drama, no glitches and server failures keeping me from actually posting... So, maybe this will work. Honestly, if nobody reads this, it's whatever... At least I'll have an outlet for all of the chaos within my little brain.
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