So about a month ago I found out my wife has been cheating on me since August with my "friend" who helped me plan the proposal last Christmas. We got married in June. That's 5 years of my life wasted. Anyway, I remember reading somewhere that keeping a daily journal in situations like this would help keep you tethered....which I suppose is something I really need because I am fucking coming untethered. I feel like I'm in freefall. My whole life is fucking wrecked and I have no idea what I'm going to do. My plans are shot. I keep trying to sit down and figure out "Ok <me> what do you want?" But I honestly have no idea how to picture a future without her in it now.
I'm supposed to get my stuff out of our place, but I keep having a hard time getting up the emotional energy to go over there and pack.
I don't know. I just kind of want to lay down and die.
So yeah I guess I'll try and keep this journal here if I remember,
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