Why am I so hurt by all of this in Sexual Harassment in the Work Place

I am sitting here working on a friend of mines books for his company. I guess doing these books is bringing up all kinds of thoughts in my mind about how someone can really try to screw someone over even when they didn’t do anything wrong.

It is scary to me to think what the two of them are up to. I know I didn’t do anything wrong and I have a clear conscience when it comes to the books at that company I worked for. But here is the scary part could they try to manipulate things to make it look like I did something? I thank God Quickbooks has a tracker that keeps track of every change that is made to it. But it scary for me to think that if these two were capable of lying under oath at an unemployment hearing, what else are they capable of?

Slowly I am beginning to come to the other side of the reality of all the damage that has been done inside of me and starting to see the owner of the company for who he really is. I guess you would call this the dismantling of the illusion I lived under for years and I do have to say this dismantling hurts and isn’t an easy process.

I know with time I will heal and all of this will behind me like one bad dream. But for right now it is an emotional roller coaster inside of myself trying to make sense of all of this.

I am beginning to see that everything that he promised me was most likely never going to happen. I am beginning to see that I most likely would have never ended up owning that company. No wonder he held off the contracts for so long. And when I would bring up the contracts he would say you don’t trust anyone do you? But he always kept me at bay just enough for me to trust him, which I am not sure why in the first place, because he was always changing our agreements.

These are some hard feelings to feel and some hard realizations to come to. The only thing I was guilty of was not being able to put up with his marriage manipulations any longer. Scary to think someones mind could work the way his does, but it also scary for me to realize that I fell for it all for way too long.