If I Were a Lion, I'd Scratch Your Eyes Out Friday, April 17, 2009
I am so angry at Ken right now I can't even explain it. He has so much bitterness and anger built in him he constantly takes it out on me. I want so much to make him understand how I feel, but I can't because he won't even listen to me. He just believes I am wrong and that's that.
I don't want to lose him. I don't want it to end over something stupid like this. However, I can't have a relationship that is like this. We can go a few days and that's it and he get's so angry at me. It's over such stupid stuff too. Like we had a deal that we both would stop eating fast food. I told him I'd try really hard during my road trip to Florida but it would be hard because we were driving and didn't really have a way to make a home cooked meal. Well when I got home I told him I ate fast food twice the whole trip and he freaked out! He started yelling at me and actually said, "If you'd lie to me about this, what else would you lie to me about?" I was floored. I just kept saying, "Seriously? You are mad about fast food? Seriously? I told you about it, and you are still upset?" Well a week later I found a fast food receipt in his truck. Did I get mad? Hell NO! I laughed and asked what else he'd lie to me about. He started laughing too. But, in hindsight, I think... "WTF? Seriously?"
I really don't know what else to do. I want to just forget about it, but I can't. We had plans tomorrow and he wants to still do them so his daughter doesn't get disapointed. However, he's the one that said he didn't think we should get together and now he's changing it. Seriously, I don't want to hang out with someone that is so mad at me and play pretend all day that everything is cool. I would much rather take my daughter out and play all day with someone that loves me unconditionally. it's supposed to be sunny at 74 all day tomorrow. I surely am NOT going to waste that.
Ok, end rant for now.
Her
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oh oh, mindgames [dontyouforgetaboutme] [p] 4/18/2009 1:28:22 AM
he's def taking his bitterness over the past and past relationships out on you. i mean, really, someone who gets THAT upset over fast food that you ADMITTED TO?? that can't be the issue.
i don't blame you... i'd take lily out and be with just her. she's only a baby once and you should enjoy it.
it seems like you can come to some sort of understanding. he needs to know that this is unacceptable and you won't stay in a relationship like this. i get the feeling, though, that this must be conveyed some way other than i just conveyed it. i suspect he would get upset and say "fine then... dump me" or something like that. [predhead]
4/18/2009 2:06:57 AM
Hopefully this is just "growing pains" for you two. I hope everything gets straightened out very, very soon.
[OddJohn] [p]
4/18/2009 10:18:31 AM
[prettylittlekitty] 4/18/2009 10:43:41 PM
Ugh...why are men so insecure?? They so often think We are, but they've got us beat on that, I think! [Mommy2Katie]
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