Feeling Stuck or Is it something Else? in Plan B

I did my normal shift as usual. Came home tired as usual. Not actually from the work itself just from the nrg out put of doing the work. Caring for someone - making sure they don’t fall, get their meds on time, put together there breathing treatment, be sure the food is really good and that she eats well while I am there, make sure their complete sponge bath is really complete and I didn’t forget anything. Giving them emotional support knowing that my job for the day was well done. When I am tired it is hard to give 100% and I know just from human nature I can’t give 100% - 100% of the time.
Now here is where the “stuck” part comes....I want to one day start dating again. I am tired of just floating around and round and would like to meet someone where laughter comes easy and looking forward to something fun but after giving and giving all week long day in and day out I really don’t think there is anything left. I can barely walk the dogs when I get home. Even at times they seem to needy and that makes me feel terrible. It’s like pleaaaaaaase go lay down for just a minute then we will go do something....
I’m wore out. Yesturday was busy and never got to really catch up on my rest and I come home today to a pile of throw up on the rug along with a pile of poop ( who did it dosn’t matter I don’t get mad at them ~ I leave at 6:15 and get home at almost 4:00 give or take 10 minutes) a handful of paper towles some lysol wipes and it’s gone. But after all that the thought of going out for a late snack or meal or drink ( or not ) couldn’t even register with me to do such a thing. My only thing is to get a shower and come up with something quick to eat. Tonight it was jelly beans and m&m’s. I will have some toast and a glass of milk for I go to bed.
I’m not even a relegious so to speak but I do like the “10 Commandments” it was a big part of celebrating Easter along with Charlie Browns Easter show ( which I missed this year or it wasn’t on) when I was a kid.
May this week go smooth. It’s going to be busy. Repicked up another client on tues. and th. ( the flaky daughter who didn’t call the agency when her Mom got hurt - ya that one ) 3 people a day every day. It’ll be ok.