School Time! Friday, June 08, 2007
I went to school today. It's been a long time since I have been there. Wow. I walked around and couldn't believe how much things have changed since I have been there. There is a whole new building! I have no idea what the building is. I will have to check it out tomorrow. Tomorrow I have my first math quiz. Hurray! It's on Addition, subtraction, mulitiplication, and division. Seriously, I feel like an old, uneducated, wanna be college student. Oh well. There was one person in my math lab taking the same class that was older than me! Oh and the math professors look JUST like the math professors in Good Will Hunting. SERIOUSLY. I kept staring at them ignoring the lesson wondering if it was really them.
All kidding aside, I am going to really like being in school again. It makes me feel like I am doing something with my life. I feel like I am learning and educating myself. Probably feels that way because I am. I just feel like I am moving forward instead of drifting around going no where. I have a goal. I will make this happen. I can do this.
My job on the other hand, isn't going too well. I have been feeling really down about my co-workers and me. I just don't feel like I fit in. This scares me. It scares me because when I quit McDonalds 5 years ago, I felt the same way. I just didn't feel like I belonged there. Now I feel like I don't belong at my current job. That scares the Hell out of me. What if I go through college, find a job, and find out I don't fit in there? What if I just don't fit in anywhere?
My nerves are not too good. My IBS flarred up again today. This time I know it was stressed related. I am pretty upset about my coworkers. A few things happened that I can't even type. That's how upset I am about it. It's like if I type it out I have to accept that it happened. I can't do that yet. I am just not ready. The wound is still too fresh. It hurts just too much still. Tomorrow I have to talk to my coworkers about it, and I am nervous as Hell. I pray it goes well. I pray that I don't cry too much. I HATE people seeing me cry.
So that's it. Baby kitty still has no name. However, Sophie and him are doing pretty well.
Her
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I wish I could wigglemy nose and make all well for U! U r good, U will do good!!! love U!!!
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6/8/2007 1:20:04 AM
RYN: Yes, there were high winds, in fact, a wind advisory.
i hope you start feeling better. [devio]
6/8/2007 1:22:12 AM
good luck on the quiz.
if it makes you feel any better it took me 2 major jobs to finally find the one i feel i fit in. it doesnt make as much money but i love it. you will find the right place one day and know it is where you belong. [muted exposure] 6/8/2007 9:32:57 AM
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