Derek, Moving, C, and More! Sunday, January 21, 2007
I used an exclamation point in my title to make it seem like this is going to be an interesting entry. So much has happened and so much is changing.
Derek and I are doing fine. Things are going well. He took me out on Friday night to "our bar." We sat down and the bar tender joked around with us. He asked us if we just got out of work. Derek explained that "no we didn't" and pointed at me and said, "She don't work. I support her." I just looked at him and started laughing. The bar tender walked away confused. He jokes around like that all the time. It's hilarious. One time when we were at the movies, (this was last year) he told the person taking tickets that we were married. He just comes up with these off the wall comments that crack me up. At the bar he was joking about me drinking too slowly. He said, "how am I supposed to take advantage of you if you don't get drunk?" I laughed at said, "That's something boyfriends and girlfriends do." (hint hint hint) And his reply was, "I am too busy and it's not fair for you to be boyfriend and girlfriend. After my grandfather passes and I can get my own place then we can see about that." short pause. Continue, "But I assure you this: You are the only one and I am not going anywhere. I seriuosly like you a lot." I then kissed him, he said some snide remark to me about being old and finished off with, "You're looking beautiful today." I love his sense of humar. It's his best quality.
In about April I am moving out of this apartment. I have already spoke to my roommate/cousin about it. I am gettting my own place. I am finally finacially stable enough to do it. I can not wait. I can finally have people over at night and not worry about waking Mike up. I can play the piano late at night and not wake Mike up. I can walk around naked and not worry about scaring Mike. I can decorate the way I want to. I can have my piano and computer hooked up together. Life is going to be grand. The best part is being able to have Derek come over with out bothering Mike. It's been 4.5 years since I have lived alone... and oh how glorious it will be!
Next big thing: C. Remember the whole first week in January sex thing? Last you all knew we hadn't talked. Well we finally talked. He was going to ask me to come over last night and I explained to him about Derek. Then I pulled a gusty move. I have a very good reason for doing what I did. One I don't care to mention. I gave him my diary to read. Yep. Now he knows for sure how I felt about him. He knows about the pregnant thing. He knows about everything. I think he was shocked. No, I know he was shocked. However, it's all good. He deserved to know. Ironically it was the same night he was going to ask me to come over. I still like C a whole lot. I just realized it was time to move on because our "relationship" or lack there of wasn't going anywhere. I should have known in the beginning when he said he didn't want kids that we wouldn't have worked out. I just kept holding onto hope that he'd change. I know better than that. I just couldn't get over how happy he made me. How perfect he seemed for me. How funny he was. How sweet he was. How romantic he could be. I loved the whole open car door for me and all the extras he did. He's a good guy. He'll make someone happy some day. If he lets it happen.
Keith tried to contact me by instant messenger today. Of course I blocked him with out even reading what he had to say. The man is addicted to me, I swear it. And if it's not him, then it's his girlfriend. HA! I love it. I used to hate it, but now that I could give two shits about those people I think it's hilarious how weak they are. I know how good of a catch I am. I know how good hearted I am. I know how thoughtful I am. I may not be the most beautiful person on the outside, but on the inside I am. Keith knows it. That's why he can't let me go. There. How's that for conceited? Blah!
I joined a church. It's Catholic. I was raised Catholic and I found that I missed it. I want to join the choir there. It's been way too long since I was in a choir. I was in a show choir in Highschool and miss it. When I move into my new apartment I will record a song with me singing and playing piano and put it up here. Not sure how this paragraph got to be about me liking to sing. It's suppose to be about church. Oh well. Enough about this topic. I will update when I know more about the church choir.
Lastly, I started smoking again. Argh. I plan on quitting again during Lent.
Goodnight all,
Her
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Whoa, that's a mouth full of an entry. [Pickled Duck Lips] [p] 1/21/2007 11:30:04 PM
if c and derick both wanted to marry you and all other things being equal in the way of attention and wanting to settle down who would you choose [Doller Bill] [p] 1/22/2007 1:36:18 AM
RYN: Thanks! I expect it to slow down now after all the water weight, but 11 pounds the first week seems like a great way to start to me!! [Jadelabyrinth] 1/22/2007 10:49:14 AM
you are the only one who ever doubted that you were a great catch [Doller Bill] [p] 2/1/2007 1:00:24 AM
maybe they are not weak, you are just iresistable [Doller Bill] [p] 2/1/2007 1:01:43 AM
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