Our Father in Me, My girls & God

God if all these things happened to bring me close to you....IT worked!
If people have been removed from my life for your reason then i need strength to not look back. Every time I do it’s a devil attack. Lord Jesus walk with me for every step i take im afraid to fall. But you know all to well how stubborn i crawl. I need strength and courage. I need you to hear my cries i survived but my children are deprived and to feel alive we need your protection from outside harm, Lord sound the alarm! Take away the curse that keeps us in pain allow us to shine light in the rain. I want to be happy but most of all i want my children to be happy. I pray for a man who will stand in church the place my spirit longs to be. Every time i walk threw the doors tears come from my eyes, the devil lies! Why you still love me time and time again makes me see why your my only friend cause no matter how many times i turn from your ways you pull me back and to see that ive made mistakes. When i say im weak i know you believe cause we’ve been threw this before. I need restore and your power to save cause without you lord ive lost my way. Jesus don’t leave me I need you now more then ever this devil is cleaver and fools me to believe but im starting to see the pattern he has and his control over me. So maybe this time ill quit smoking for good and maybe this time ill leave lust in the mood and maybe this time ill have more power cause the devil cant have me in this hour. Not now and certainly not forever. Mold me, shape me into clean, I once was lost be I’ve been seen. I swear im not perfect, i swear im chained but you lord understand my pain. I swear ill try, i swear ill die, wishing for you to be by my side. I’m always alone but i feel you here it’s my imagination that sees you clear. What a test on Christmas eve but what kinda test tries to deceive? I lost my car but i still made it home and Easter morning i lost my house.
You can take what you want from me you even took my husband but you will never take my trust and faith! Like a child I believe and the devil can try but he wont succeed. My god is stronger! My god is real, if he wasn’t why would the devil try to revile and i know all to well the face of sin. I know all to well the devil within and i smell him around when i see a helpless alcoholic and i see him in the eyes filled with fear and pain but it’s truth that has the power to rein! Jesus loves me and im starting to learn to love me 2! The devil has nothing on you. People have to get this right there is more then life in this light you need to see the devil is around and this earth is his dwelling. Do you not get that????
Without god you may live fine but the devil wont claim his own or waste his time. He only wants what isn’t his....so if your hitting hard times or constantly filled with fear it’s because you have evil near. It took me years to understand, it took me years to reach for his hand! I would pray but never change i would pray but remain the same. I pray some day i see your face in the kingdom of heaven where the stars will be set free and ride the reminder of what i devil did to me. But for now i hold them in my skin to remind me of devil who tries to get in. Humble i try humble i may but humble is me as i kneel to pray. Amen!