Overwhelmed Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Saturday and Sunday I worked. Monday I worked 9 to 5 and it was the end of a cold that I had aquired over the weekend. Sore throat. Cough. Exhaustion. Tuesday (today) I worked from 9 to 5. Then I went home. Took nap. Got up cleaned offices. Tomorrow I work 10:30 to 6:30. Then I clean offices. Thursday I work 9 to 5. Then I give piano lessons. Friday I work 12 to 8. Saturday I have class from 9am to 4pm. Sunday catch up on cleaning the apartment and do all the things I should have done over the weekend.
I tell you what. I am feeling a bit overwhelmed. Kumbi keeps calling me about his problems and how he doesn't know how to fix them so I am faced with fixing them for him. Then Derek called me crying about his Grandpa dying and how he is having to help him because he Grandma has giving up hope. I gave him a listening ear. I didn't know what else to say. It just feels like people keep dumping more and more on my plate. The only way I am finding to cope with it is by eating.
I want to vent to the people closest to me, but I don't feel that I can. They all have their own problems that they are venting on me so I can't in return say, "Well ya that sucks, but you know... my brother is dying of cancer too." Instead I keep it inside and let it get lost somewhere deep down. So deep down that sometimes I myself forget about it. You all know that. When's the last time I brought up my brother having cancer? Ever? A good long while. Why? Why don't I talk about it? I feel that I don't want to burden anyone with it. I don't want it to burden me. Besides. It's not like he's dying right this moment. It's slow. Thank God. Yes, thank God it's not today.
I need a break. I am tired. I just don't have time to take one yet. After the new year. That's when it will happen. Right after my car is payed off. That will be in March. Hurry up, March.
Goodnight All,
Her
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I'm sorry you're feeling overwhelmed. hugs
[OddJohn]
11/15/2006 8:21:45 AM
why have you stopped updating your diary [Doller Bill] [p] 11/15/2006 12:40:25 PM
and please dont block me from reading your stuff [Doller Bill] [p] 11/15/2006 12:44:48 PM
You should never wait "until"
You will always have things in your life on the horizen that your waiting to get past. Always.
So instead of waiting for them to pass, enjoy the here and now.
Anyhow, are you the one who msged me on Yahoo the other day saying "your always online but we never talk?"
[LastInLine] [p]
11/15/2006 6:30:35 PM
I thought we weren't accepting any Kumbi communications.
I know how you feel about not wanting to burden other people. But your friends do care, and it's not a burden. If nothing else, there's always OD.
I really do know how you feel. It's hard. And you never want to just bring the subject up, because you don't want to feel like you're fishing for sympathy/pity. [JKD Student]
11/15/2006 8:42:46 PM
If you ever want to vent, you can IM me: PackerQuai [JKD Student] 11/15/2006 8:43:34 PM
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