Pre-Pregnancy Test Review Monday, September 25, 2006
Tomorrow I turn 31. Tomorrow I find out if I am pregnant or not. My thoughts:
If I am pregnant I will be very happy, or course. I will love my child just as much, if not more than any other mother has ever loved their child. I will finally be able to experience the one thing that I have wanted since I was a small girl growing up. I remember when I was about 6 or 7 years old feeling the want of my own family some day. My dream will begin, and what better day to find out I am pregant? The same day I was born 31 years ago, and the same day my mother gave birth to me, and the same day my mother was born. You can't plan something so perfect. If I am pregnant I know how much of a gift from God it will be and I promise to never take my pregnancy or my child for granted. Tomorrow's my birthday, and what better gift would there be in the world than a child?
However...
If I am not pregnant, I will of course be disapointed. I will be sad. I may or may not cry. However, there is one feeling I will not have to go through, and that's the feeling of regret. I will never have to wonder what if I wouldn't have gone to Carmy's place and at least tried? I will never have to wonder if I would have gotten pregnant. I finally, for once in my life I went out and tried for something that I wanted (and here's the important part) with out caring what other's would think of me. I put everyone else aside and asked myself, "What do I want?" Then I went out and tried for it and put it in God's hands. I have no regrets. I have no remorse. Things will be what they are. Fate. If it was meant to be... it will be.
Tomorrow I find out the answer. My prediction? Well, most women always say, "when I got pregnant I just knew." I have no idea, so I guess I am more leaning on that I am not. However, tomorrow I will know for sure so I can finally rest easier. I won't have to dwell on it anymore. That will be nice in itself.
I'll post the answer tomorrow!
Her
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You know, I'm getting really anxious and jittery. You need to hurry up and take that test.
take the teeeessssst. wiggles fingers all magic like hoping it will get you to take it sooner
shuts up and stays tuned [ephemera]
9/25/2006 11:16:57 PM
Also: pre-happy birthday! [ephemera] 9/25/2006 11:17:46 PM
random comment: good luck hun :) i hope it works out for you well
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9/25/2006 11:31:27 PM
I just happened upon your diary at random. I am pregnant right now (14 weeks)and we were together just once without protection, and I did not have any inkling that anything had happened. There was no cosmic voice telling me that I was pregnant, and I was shocked to see that pink line on the test. Good luck to you! [nursechicrn] 9/25/2006 11:38:02 PM
Happy Birthday!
[OddJohn]
9/25/2006 11:52:29 PM
Good luck tomorrow!! [Slytherin Blood] 9/26/2006 12:41:07 AM
happy birthay [Serenity17]
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