I have class tonight,and I have to go because I couldn’t on Monday… bllehhh. The roads already look slippery and it hasn’t even been doing this for an hour… maybe I won’t go. Hopefully my teacher is like “no class today!” But I doubt it.
If I do miss this class though, it will be a bit of a shame since I’m pretty interested in the material. Ah, well.
Anyway, I’ve been thinking about “fitting into” groups and whatnot. I’m active or semi-active in a few groups on Facebook (virtual social life is better than absolutely nothing). I’m in a Reddit mom group I joined back in 2012, a pin-up group that stemmed from a clothing brand I really like, a workout group that’s a subgroup of the Reddit mom group, and now a gaming group that is a subgroup of the mom group.
I always feel like the extra puzzle piece from the box that almost fits into a space, but never quite does.
Since it’s varying groups of people and varying interests, I wonder if it’s perhaps me that’s the problem. Maybe I have a problem connecting with people, but since I’m usually clueless as to how to change it, it’s still an issue. I need friends, I need people other than my family.... but actually making real life friends is an obstacle that is difficult for me to surmount.
I do have things in common with the people I’m in groups with, that’s obvious, otherwise I would not be in them and engage with them. But having things in common is not enough. Even when I feel like I engage often and thorougly, I can’t seem to connect. No one really knows who I am. Often times some of the people in the group break off and become close with each other. That never happens with me, but I’m obviously failing to do something right. Maybe I’m not clever or funny enough to be memorable.
Maybe the problem is that I’m not reaching out enough. I don’t know. I don’t really know how to reach out either. The other problem is that I don’t completely delve into every hobby/subject that involves the groups. I am not a heavy gamer (I can’t be), into the pin-up lifestyle (I just enjoy the clothing), and my mom group talks about many things, but I still only seem to be “kind of” into what they are talking about.
This isn’t supposed to come off as a depressive post, I’m just trying to explore this more. Leave it to me to always analyze everything, right? ;P
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