5 days since in Dear Diary

I’m not sure how to start this or where to go with it. I created this as a way to navigate through my ending marriage. Everything hit the fan about 5 days ago and now my life feels like its drastically changing but yet not much has happened. My husband and I are just living each day as ‘normal’, just now with a huge elephant in the room. We’ve had small conversations here and there but we haven’t really sat down and TALKED. The kids are, thankfully, oblivious to whats been going on but my husband and I are just trying to keep things moving along as before. The kids have noticed I’ve been sleeping downstairs lately but that isn’t necessarily uncommon for me. I have come to the confirmation that we really have been living like roommates for so long. For me, this has not been a marriage for a long time. I’ve been silently suffering for years but wanting to keep it together because of this lifestyle we’ve made for the kids. I say we, but really he has since I have been a stay at home mom since my daughter was 8 months old. I have not worked for 10 years so I’m especially nervous to get back into working. I only have an associates degree and no skills, so finding jobs around here will be tough for me. I really don’t want to be judged over this. I just really need an outlet to help me through all this because I’m scared. A lot more of my life is going to change and I don’t know where to even start or do or anything. My husband and I still have a lot of talking to do but as of this moment, I’m lost. I’m just floating around like a bubble with no direction until all goes pop.