I'm here again in 2026

It's been a while since I been here I've been on facebook. I needed someplace different for a while. I like it there I only have a few friends there like five and I more open there but my facebook is only viewable by the five friends I have there I know those people in regular life away from online. But I think it's time I come back here and write again things are better I still miss mom like crazy but I'm learning to get a long on my own now. I have been volunteering at different places to take up my free time till now I feel like I can write again and be here. I am saving up for a new laptop. I am doing more gaming at night with a few friends. Idalis is been playing with me a lot lately. It will be two years that mom has been gone on Oct 18th Her birthday is this friday. I'm single again although I haven't really looked around but I''ve been approached many times though seems to be a lot of single ladies out there the youthful look and long black hair seems to attract women. I just been dating here and there but nothing too serious. I don't really want anything serious I like being alone these days. I don't really want anything more. I adopted a male cat he's been a joy to have in my home he likes a lot of attention and he's very much like me. I'm looking for a maine coon female to add to my home maybe two. They are so much company and i enjoy that company my girls mom's cats have finally accepted my boy cat. they are still snapping once in a while but not a lot anymore that is why I am looking for two more now. we can have 5 total in town.  I need to order more cat food tonight. I am starting to cook again instead of buying prepared meals. my boy cat loves table food he eats a lot he was a small little thing when I brought him home and now he's twice the size i wonder if he has some maine coon in him. He shouldn't been growing after 6 years old but he is he's not fat very muscular and loves to run the house like he's the king. I'm mot in a big rush finding two more cats he's a lot to handle he likes to sleep with me and waking me up at around 8 am daily because he wants breakfast.  I tried @threads but I really didn't like it too many looking for online relationships and that just isn't me i only date in person. when I was young in my twenties it was fun playing around in chat rooms and sort of having online relationships but that was a long time ago and If it's not in person I'm not interested. I don't like how the online thing is so dominating and you are expected to spend all freaking night just talking or texting back and forth. I have a life and I can't be online all the time. I don't use my laptop much these days I do everything but buying things online. I don't want to have people scam me online i just don't have any financial purchases online. So my phone is strictly for texting and keeping in contact with my friends. Another thing I've been doing is for a little over a year I've joined a catholic church and I'm very happy there. I was baptized catholic as a baby and just never attended a catholic church.  Mom was baptist and she would drag us to church there and we didn't like it. I feel comfortable in the catholic faith. I will be confirmed on June 28 after which I can do communion.  Do I[m not all religious i just feel happy there. after church a bunch of us go to breakfast and some of us go to lunch during the week. I've met a lot of good people there and I was even on catholic radio as a guest and how i like catholic faith. I might join the choir I've been thinking about it. They don't have many males there and so they have been trying to get people to join. I see it as getting to know more potential friends. It's amazing how i started off going to their grief support group and then I chose to join the faith. I needed a change in my life anyway.  I had a couple of friends that were Korean one moved to Georgia and the other is still here she even sponsored me to  their classes to become a full catholic member. What I like the most is they don't talk crap about  other churches and or religions. It's not like when mom dragged us to the baptist church and how they all put down other denominations and other people like they were the only ones that were the best and the others were false I hated that crap mainly because they were the ones that talked crap. they acted like their shit don't stink. I can't stand hypocrites. I've always been curious about the Catholics growing up I always saw them as the only true church out there because the others were all splinter churches and they were not holy like they claimed I remember when I told mom i didn't want to go back that a few mother later their youth minister stole over 40,000.00 dollars before he was caught. they only liked you if you tithe more then 100.00 every Sunday otherwise they really didn't care about you being there. They treated mom like dirt because she wasn't white. and one of the Deacons was a bigot. I don't see that in the catholic church and people are friendly and happy to see you. they don't demand a certain amount of money to tithe. which i tend to give more because of that they seem so different.  I've already joined several ministries and even go to bible study. it's the first church I like and  enjoy being there. I went to my first confession a few weeks ago  before Easter. All that is left is confirmation.  So, call me crazy for liking church and my sister probably is rolling in her  urn a lot , but I really needed a change I was always reminded about her and a protestant church just had too many fake people who thought they were holy. Any way I'm going to wander around here a bit before bed.