Chemo days aren’t so bad when it’s also our high holy day. I ain’t gonna lie, I was stoned most of the day. Well, not like stupid high. Just enough to keep me stable and unmoved.
I made sugar cookies stuffed with peanut butter and a few chocolate chips. I asked Rick to get me three munchie type items- Doritos, a gummy type candy and chocolate. He brought home Doritos, a FIVE POUND bag of gummy bears, and a jar of original M&Ms. Now M&Ms are not my fave. Which will make the jar easy to avoid. I allow myself one small handful of gummy bears.
I am not sure what I was thinking about dinner. I made a nacho cheese dip for the Doritos. I was going to heat up garlic naan and falafel, but ended up microwaving leftover tuna noodle skillet and had nachos on the side (what the hell was I thinking?).
We watched the movie Brazil. Perfect movie for the holiday.
Not sure what my plans are for today. I will probably continue working on cutting out flowers for my collage project. I am focusing on shades of pink, but I want whimsical and unusual. No carnations here. I can’t wait to experiment.
I am still trying to decide if I want to paint the canvas for the collage with a striking statement color for the background. I think it might be a really cool accent to see bits of teal or another color that compliments pink, peeking through the collage material. I have to see what base colors I have before I can make a decision on that.
I am also planning on coloring in one aspect of the photo I am using. In this case, it is a fully inflated bubble gum bubble blown by my bff Debi. I have printed out the portrait, that I took, onto a 4x6 label that I printed with my thermal printer. Once I make a few easy cuts, it will look like an old Polaroid picture. I want to color in the bubble using either colored pencil, or watercolor. I am not sure if the surface is agreeable to either of those things. We will have to wait and see.
Until then, I will be painstakingly cutting flowers from pages I have stolen from long forgotten gardening books, and coffee table books featuring floral design of the rich and famous. I like to think that these books are being honored in a better way by being given a new life as bits and bobs in art pieces. I think that is pretty cool.
After I wrote my entry yesterday, talking about how sales have slowed down, I had an order for SEVENTY dollars come through. Luckily, it came through before Rick was ready to head out to run to the post office with other orders, so this item got shipped almost immediately. Later in the day, I sold TWO MORE things. Will net about fifty bucks on those sales. Those will probably go out tomorrow.
Chemo day was tolerable, but I feel like I was hit by a bus today. I have had this intense pain in the middle of my back and it radiates to my front. If I had to describe it, I would say it feels like a smoldering coal. I don’t know if it is my back, or an ulcer, or what. Maybe gallbladder. Who knows. But it has been ever present since last night and I am hoping it subsides.
I am thinking baked chicken, chicken rice-a-roni, and peas for dinner. Little fuss. Hot dogs for lunch. Rick found a giant pack of Ballpark franks yesterday for a good price, so we’ll be eating hot dogs for a bit. I need to get ketchup though.
I cleaned the kitchen before Rick was awake. I wanted to face the day with an empty sink, and Rick appreciated a clean slate when he woke up. Am I going to put regular clothing on today? Eh. Probably not. I am currently wearing white sweatpants with muted pastel hearts printed all over, paired with a navy blue tank top with the words, “Make Puppets Not War” printed across the chest. I look like the hipster reboot of Mrs. Kravitz from Bewitched. I am not mad at it, lol.
I want to be productive today. I should work on reselling, but I am not sure where my head is at. New inventory listings would be cool. It would jumpstart sales, but I am not quite with it enough to make decisions about my whole day yet. I am going to take my meds and see where I am at after I finish my coffee.
I want to stay in a flow state again today. Good things happen when I am rowing along this journey of trying to stay in a postive-ish mindset, and not letting bed rot take over.
I hope you all have a great day.
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