Sweat in Okay

Uncontrolled panic attack...
Didn't realize until it was too late...
She takes my breath away...
In the right ways...
And the wrong ways...
The drugs work quick 
Nervous system still glitching out 
The beating heart that radiates through my head
And I feel the pain in my side 
The pain of things I should have said and didn't say 
Of exploited, exposed emotion 
And unseen compromise 
This is my misshapen vanity
I am open and she hates that I open her
The drugs take forever