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So, I'm seeing someone.. And it's good, it's great, it's fine. She's a big dork with pink hair, Doc's, collects weird shit, and is better at Fortnite than me. She doesn't talk for the sake of ...
I Don't Even Know... in Okay
Do you remember crying yourself to sleep?Or hiding in the bathroom stall at work wishing it'd all go away?Have you chosen that dark tunnel again or are you somewhere else?I know it stopped for...
When you're all alone and it's overwhelmingAnd you're in the dark and your heart is beatingWhen you feel everything and nothingYou can take a breath and call meIt doesn't matter when, it doesn'...
Those much smarter than me say that you have to love yourself before you can love anyone else But this never sat right with me How can this be true, if I've never experienced love, how can I k...
Street Heat in Okay
Theres a sound comin' outta me but I dunno what the fuck it isEveryone lookin' at me for answersBut I don't got 'em for myselfGotta hit the streets runnin'Fast as I can outta brick cityBreathe i...
It's how it goes in Okay
Hey I really like you....Do you like this band? Have you ever seen them live?Have you ever seen this movie? I've seen it I don't know how many times Hey I really like you...What are you doing r...
This the freedom,This is the sound, You hear when you stop walking on glassOnce you're okay being a memoryGuns ablaze in the back of your heart Dead souls rest in the back of your head You were ...
Pulmonary Archery in Okay
Pin it back and bleed it to the core I am still and will be here Awkward pauses on the lips of those wanting more So we tread on the grounds that we fear We do it in our sleep, In our dream...
Just One Game in Okay
Don't be stupid... Breathe... No conclusions... No expectations... No playlists... Just one day at a time... Until Saturday...
My grandfather died in 2019. He was walking down the stairs out of his house and just dropped dead. Just like that. Lights out. My grandmother, she lived another 7 years, and died last week. He...
I don't know what to do in Okay
I've got so many negative adjectives rolling around in my head Worthless...Hopeless...Abandoned...Too much, not enough I've got core pillars of who I've been left to dust around me I've ...
I noticed you in Okay
I don't know if you've noticed anything different, But I'm not there anymore, I don't know if you notice anything at all I've gone quiet and I know it's the way you want it But I fuc...
Stop...Don't..Come back..It wasn't supposed to be like this...I didn't mean it..Just give me a second...It all happened so fast...I miss...I missed...Everything... Fuck.
I Don't Learn Lessons Good in Okay
So you're goneAnd I'm busy pickin up the piecesOf the mess you left behindIt's too bad you can't tell me where the pieces fitFrom the last time you came back, I was almost whole againThen you s...
I'm not a spiritual person. In fact, other than thinking we're all connected in some esoteric, cosmic way... like through star dust, I haven't really thought about spirituality in a long ...
"And when nobody wakes you up in the morning, and when nobody waits for you at night, and when you can do whatever you want. What do you call it, freedom or loneliness?"
What if you didn't leave, what if we worked through this shit? She leaned back against the wall and lit a cigarette. The silence sweat between them as he waited for her to answer. He reached ou...
I really like how easy we pick up how we leave off. Why's it like that, ya think? Because I care...because we both care Do we? Don't we? Then why do you always leave? ... Say it... Say...
Letter #10: Musing From the Floor in Okay
Dear friend, Actually, can I call you that? I know I've fucked off more times than I can count so maybe we're something more distant than that now. I'd apologize but at this point we are what...
Life and death in Okay
There is an elderly woman trying desperately to breathe in her bed. She's asleep but you can hear it in her lungs with each breath she takes. She doesn't have a long A man and his mother loo...
Good Night in Okay
I know it I got a bit of a fucked up, crooked soul And it weighs me down when it doesn't need to And I got a little bit of a black heart But it's red where it needs to be And I know y...
Saccharine Dreams in Okay
Citizen / Sleep I'm so tired, But I can't stop being in motionCuz it's in those quiet moments Like before the sun starts to burn the day away,Or when the moon cracks the dark sky in twoW...
Today was...difficult and heavy. I'm emotionally spent.
High Fidelity (nsfw) in Okay
Just to expand on yesterdays thoughts on leaving a little and maybe I'm the only one but I doubt it...Nowhere, in any scenario, is she having better sex than the sex she is currently having i...
A.F.I - The Leaving Song Pt.II People leave. They don’t do it on a schedule, and absence isn’t neat. They just fucking go sometimes, and you’re left scrambling to figure out what’s left behind...