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Untitled in Okay

Sometimes I wonder where I fit in But at 3:00 in the morning I know it's nowhere I want to be I've let down all the people I can handle So if you're going to leave, just go Cuz God's over h...


June 15, 2026

We Dream in Threes in Okay

Today was a nondescript day...I'm sitting at my desk reading Slack et. al., for my OM course. Skinny Love spills out through the speakers on my desk and in behind my ears cuz I'm focused on m...


June 09, 2026

I can't in Okay

Everyone says, yeah I can understand thatMom says, we can call and fix that if she calls at allBut the hurt's so deep, the blood don't flow straight anymoreI can't hold this anymore, I dunno wha...


Lying in my bed at night,Toss and turning all night cuzI'm a little sweaty and my stomach hurtsThe stars shine through the window but I can't look at themThese moments add up and it all feels li...


Today was a good day  Except I have a hole in me I don't know how to fix  So it ended in angst instead


May 04, 2026

Burdens in Okay

When you're all alone and it's overwhelmingAnd you're in the dark and your heart is beatingWhen you feel everything and nothingYou can take a breath and call meIt doesn't matter when, it doesn'...


May 01, 2026

Love in Okay

Those much smarter than me say that you have to love yourself before you can love anyone else But this never sat right with me How can this be true, if I've never experienced love, how can I k...


April 28, 2026

Street Heat in Okay

Theres a sound comin' outta me but I dunno what the fuck it isEveryone lookin' at me for answersBut I don't got 'em for myselfGotta hit the streets runnin'Fast as I can outta brick cityBreathe i...


April 28, 2026

It's how it goes in Okay

Hey I really like you....Do you like this band? Have you ever seen them live?Have you ever seen this movie? I've seen it I don't know how many times Hey I really like you...What are you doing r...


April 26, 2026

Untitled in Okay

This the freedom,This is the sound, You hear when you stop walking on glassOnce you're okay being a memoryGuns ablaze in the back of your heart Dead souls rest in the back of your head You were ...


April 24, 2026

Pulmonary Archery in Okay

Pin it back and bleed it to the core I am still and will be here Awkward pauses on the lips of those wanting more So we tread on the grounds that we fear We do it in our sleep, In our dream...


April 21, 2026

Just One Game in Okay

Don't be stupid... Breathe... No conclusions... No expectations... No playlists... Just one day at a time... Until Saturday...


April 20, 2026

Funeral in Okay

My grandfather died in 2019. He was walking down the stairs out of his house and just dropped dead. Just like that. Lights out. My grandmother, she lived another 7 years, and died last week. He...


April 17, 2026

I don't know what to do in Okay

I've got so many negative adjectives rolling around in my head  Worthless...Hopeless...Abandoned...Too much, not enough  I've got core pillars of who I've been left to dust around me  I've ...


April 13, 2026

I noticed you in Okay

I don't know if you've noticed anything different,  But I'm not there anymore, I don't know if you notice anything at all  I've gone quiet and I know it's the way you want it  But I fuc...


April 11, 2026

Eyes open in Okay

Stop...Don't..Come back..It wasn't supposed to be like this...I didn't mean it..Just give me a second...It all happened so fast...I miss...I missed...Everything... Fuck.


April 07, 2026

I Don't Learn Lessons Good in Okay

So you're goneAnd I'm busy pickin up the piecesOf the mess you left behindIt's too bad you can't tell me where the pieces fitFrom the last time you came back, I was almost whole againThen you s...


April 06, 2026

Paath in Okay

I'm not a spiritual person. In fact, other than thinking we're all connected in some esoteric, cosmic way... like through star dust, I haven't really thought about spirituality in a long ...


April 05, 2026

Bukowski in Okay

"And when nobody wakes you up in the morning, and when nobody waits for you at night, and when you can do whatever you want. What do you call it, freedom or loneliness?"


April 05, 2026

Repeating in Okay

What if you didn't leave, what if we worked through this shit? She leaned back against the wall and lit a cigarette. The silence sweat between them as he waited for her to answer. He reached ou...


April 05, 2026

Rinsing in Okay

I really like how easy we pick up how we leave off. Why's it like that, ya think? Because I care...because we both care Do we? Don't we? Then why do you always leave? ... Say it... Say...


Dear friend,  Actually, can I call you that? I know I've fucked off more times than I can count so maybe we're something more distant than that now. I'd apologize but at this point we are what...


April 02, 2026

Life and death in Okay

There is an elderly woman trying desperately to breathe in her bed. She's asleep but you can hear it in her lungs with each breath she takes. She doesn't have a long  A man and his mother loo...


April 01, 2026

Good Night in Okay

I know it  I got a bit of a fucked up, crooked soul  And it weighs me down when it doesn't need to  And I got a little bit of a black heart  But it's red where it needs to be  And I know y...


March 31, 2026

Saccharine Dreams in Okay

Citizen / Sleep I'm so tired, But I can't stop being in motionCuz it's in those quiet moments Like before the sun starts to burn the day away,Or when the moon cracks the dark sky in twoW...


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