I don't want to be better in Memories.....or lack thereof...

I don’t want to be better
I don’t want to conform
I know i should want to be better
But I simply don’t fit the norm

I don’t want all those feelings
It sounds like a whole lot of work
I think they will just leave me reeling
And I’ll probably act like a jerk

I’m comfortable in my dysfunction
It’s cozy and safe where I am
I’m really ok at this junction
If you don’t like it, I don’t give a damn.

I don’t want to consider the trauma
It’s safely tucked in it’s box
It will only create some more drama
If we bother to open the locks

I’m calm, happy and functioning
The way the am in the now
I don’t want to go around struggling
Just to please you somehow

So no, I don’t want to get better
I staunchly refuse to conform
I would rather stay a forgetter
Than walk with you into the storm