Tonight has been kind of shitty. I’ve mentioned before that I don’t really have close friends here. I have the girls from work but we don’t hang out.
I’m used to being in a relationship where I basically live with someone. This is the first time I have lived on my own and I really don’t like it. I like to have people around. I wanna gossip and have a meal with someone. But I also don’t really want a roommate. I guess I could. I have an extra bedroom but I use it for storage cause hello I totally need 2 wardrobes!
I was sick for 2 weeks. Finally shook it off but I gave it to the boy. Poor thing sounds miserable. Tomorrow is 1 month for us and probably he will be too sick to get out of bed.
I saw the boy on Wednesday and we had a small talk about how I feel we are going backwards emotionally. I got nervous and kind of shut down. We didn’t talk much the rest of the night and we called it an early night. We messaged some where I tried to explain my fears to him but I could tell he was frustrated and he just wanted to sleep. I was annoyed that he wouldn’t just listen to me and we went to bed angry.
I called out of work the next day cause all I wanted was sleep. He messaged me and we fixed things. Today I was feeling depressed and lonely cause of the whole almost always alone thing. He called me twice to try and make me feel better and so did my friend. It was nice just to talk to people. I don’t need to go out or anything but just talking helps!
Tomorrow I’ll be getting a tattoo. Pretty excited about it :) this will be number 4 and I also know what number 5 will be but trying to decide placement. One day I’ll figure out how to post photos and maybe share my new ink :)
here is to a hopefully good weekend!
Sooo maybe I figured out pictures? If it works here’s a pic of me at work!
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