My ex decided he no longer wishes to continue a friendship with me. I apparently have nothing good about myself and I am not a person he wants to be friends with. I let him tear into me for a few days. I agreed with everything he said. I didn’t fight him which probably made him more angry. He ended it and I doubt he will be back.
It sucks that I hurt him. I’ll feel guilt for that for a long time to come. What I have learned though in my 28 years of life is that life is too short to dwell and to be sad. Life goes on regardless. Just push forward.
My boy is fantastic and has been supportive through this whole ordeal. There aren’t enough hours in the day. Tomorrow I’ll sit across from him until a table is too much distance then we will retreat to a cafe where we can sit side by side. I still wonder how he came into my life. At this moment.
Last weekend we had a thanksgiving feast with our friends. We had people from Turkey, America, Australia, England, Libya, Iran, and south Africa. It was so great to see all of these different people interacting! The food was fantastic and I got to show off my boy. One of the girls was giving card reading. My boyfriend and I both got similar readings. Unity with a strong foundation. We kept smiling at each other. My friend told me at the end of the night: ‘that boy adores you. He’s a keeper’ it makes me so happy that he so perfectly fits in with my friends. He’s even talking a business deal with my closest friend.
Did I mention we talked about baby names last week? We have been together officially for 3 weeks. Weirdest thing? It’s all completely natural. No force. We just do and say what feels right.
The other great part about last weekend was remembering that I do have people in my life. There are people I can try to trust and that’s a really good feeling.
We have a Christmas party with secret Santa in the works. Now if only we can locate a ham in Istanbul ;)
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