Today, my intentions have been operating full-cylinder! My targets are P3/C3/R3, showing that, for me, what gets measured really gets managed. Click here if you want to see what a crazy level of management this operation is. I’ve color coded the levels from 0-3: blue=0, or not much effort; green=1, or baseline work; yellow=2, or in the flow and getting things moving; orange=3, or really going! I added a column called “Emo” to my chart to track how I’m feeling at the end of each day. A crazy level of crazy, but I’m having fun with it!
Physical is at a 3, and I’ll show you why: I attempted to do this Caroline Girvan workout this morning! It’s part of the series (its workout 5 of 50…fifty!), and it’s the most intense workout I think I’ve ever seen! She does high intensity cardio or calisthenics 1X per week (out of her 5-day week plan), and it’s KILLER. Honestly, scroll through some of that workout. I do this at maybe ¼ of her actual speed, so when she’s doing 12 burpees in a 40-second round, I’m doing 3. I still wound up with many, many high-intensity points on my fitbit that I’m calling it a “P3”, meaning the highest/hardest level of effort. Boom. After my qigong warmup and weighted vest fast step quickie routine, my morning workout was done.
Career is at a 3 today too. I did end up receiving the draft of the contract I’ve been waiting for on Tuesday, but it was going to lock me into 3 months of work (including travel) after I’d been transparent and said I was looking for a full-time job with benefits and that was my top priority. I answered back saying that I need a clause in the contract that says I have the right to give them a two-week notice in the event that I find a full-time job. It’s been crickets since then. So I’ve reached out to the president of the larger company and told him I was excited to begin work on the projects and that I’m just waiting for the finalized contract. Sigh. Why is this so hard? There’s a lot more that I could say about this, but it would be getting into the weeds. I started to write some of it out, but honestly, it’s not worth my energy until that damn agreement is signed, sealed, and delivered.
So I continue with my job search.
Talked to a headhunter yesterday who I’ve been in contact with for a while now. We had a Teams meeting, and it was great to see her face-to-face. She told me not to be discouraged in the first quarter. Most companies that I deal with are still in their old fiscal year. Most companies won’t end their fiscal year until February, and then bonuses come out, and then NEW budgets happened…and THEN there’s movement within companies. She said that Springtime is the best time to get a new job.
Regardless, I continue to fill out applications as I see them.
And the Relationship column is at a 3 today too!! I decided that if I’m going to have a Relationship column at all for the year 2026, I’d need to get back into the swing of actually getting out and being with people. So I got on the Bumble again. And scored a coffee date for today. It’s already happened. My next entry will be a RAD!! Get ready!
See? I’ve been workin’ my plan!
What’s happening in other news?
I saw a post on Instagram the other day that made me stop in my tracks.
I still follow my ex-fiance’s (SexyPants) best friend and his whole family, including the best friend’s wife and the best friend’s three daughters. One of the daughters made a post about how the best friend was in his final moments, and she posted a whole carousel of photos - maybe 10 or 12 - and SexyPants was in all of them. SP was truly family to these people. My heart just sunk because I remembered how much love these people gave me lo those many years ago…especially the best friend.
I looked and looked and looked at the photos, how sick the best friend looked.
And then I broke down and sent a text to SP telling him that I saw the post and that my heart was broken and that I’m sending all my love to the family.
SP immediately texted me back, saying that he hasn’t left best friends side for six week. I have no idea what happened or why…but it really touched me. SP thanked me told me that he’d let his best friend know and that it was only a matter of days or hours. Oof.
And another one of my colon cancer online friends passed this week as well. Oh my heart. She was a stunningly beautiful woman who fought viciously for her own life and supported the lives of so many others. I went back and looked at all of the hundreds of messages we had back and forth. She was so supportive. She was a force. Had over 100 chemotherapy treatments, more surgeries and complications than I could count. And she finally succumbed. I’ve now seen about a dozen of my colon cancer online family die. Cancer is a monster. It’s mysterious, shocking, and cruel.
It sometimes gives me survivor’s guilt. My heart hurts.
But then I know that we have to go on. The show must go on. I must get myself back to work and back into life.
Tomorrow I will go visit my family to celebrate my dad’s 87th birthday. I’m sure that will be an EVENT (as in, it will be an ordeal to get my mom to want to leave the house to go to lunch). I’ll do the drive up and back on the same day, which is such a bitch, but I have to be back here on Sunday to do my volunteer stuff.
I’ve got not one, but two volunteer events tomorrow. The first one is my usual thrifting pop-up downtown that supports the local homeless population. That’s where I get up close and personal with my unhoused neighbors.
The second one, the new one, is with another non-profit organization that operates a super cool thrift shop in another part of town. They’ve recently taken over a larger warehouse and they also have a shipping container full of free items for whoever needs them. I’ll be helping set up and merchandise the new, larger warehouse.
I always look forward to my time with these kinds of organizations, partially selfishly because I’m doing something that I enjoy, but I also know there’s a BIG element of giving my time and services back to people who need it and can use it.
So, that’s my whole weekend.
I’m pushing for more movent of things to happen this weekend. But remember, I don’t chase…I attract.
Manifesting alllll the good things through measured and controlled ACTION!!
xox,
GS
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