What a Sunday! I had an awesome day—so restful that I almost felt guilty for being in bed all day. Almost.
I woke up and tried to watch church, but I just wasn’t in the mood. I’m sorry—I couldn’t sit still long enough to watch a full sermon. I may attend Mass tomorrow morning around 8 a.m. I simply needed a day of doing absolutely nothing. I did take a few business calls, but nothing too strenuous.
Tomorrow, before my 4 p.m. appointment, I have a lot to do: go to church, do laundry, cash a check, and pay for my DC trip. I keep pushing that trip back, though.
I’m hesitant to spend $500–$1,100 on a single trip where I’ll only make about $100. The Water Lantern Festival wants me to go on tour with them in 15–20 different cities, but the issue is that they’re only paying $150, and I’d have to cover everything else.
Even if I could afford it, I don’t enjoy flying or staying in cheap hotels. I like to make money, not spend it—and this tour would require a lot of spending. On top of that, I’d need to advertise the tour, pay for flyers, and figure out how to get my music into potential fans’ hands. The Uber fees alone would add up quickly.
I’d much rather invest that money into advertising music that’s already online, creating new music, and developing visuals. I don’t like rolling the dice with my career by traveling constantly for the chance to gain a small number of fans who may or may not even look up my music.
Carmine, someone I collaborated with on a song, said he’d travel with me so we could perform together. But honestly, I don’t think he’s someone I should associate my music with. His style includes a lot of cursing, he looks much older than me, and I don’t think he’d be a strong addition to my set overall. These thoughts came after I told him I wished he could come on tour with me. I was partially telling the truth—but I’ve since changed my mind.
I’m surprised to say this, but I feel tired in a good way. I usually struggle to sleep through the night, but I don’t think that will be an issue tonight. The only problem is that I don’t have the energy to wash my face. Also, I haven’t been able to find my retainer for months, and I’m starting to notice a tiny gap forming in my bottom row of teeth.
Anyway—thank You, Father, for a beautiful day. Thank You for rest, for the food I ate today, for my air conditioning staying cold, and for my health. I pray for my family’s health as well, for that is our true wealth. I also pray for everyone reading this. May You touch their lives in such a miraculous way that they feel Your presence deeply. We all desire closeness with You. Let us be the hands and feet of Jesus. Let us be positive, powerful beings who impact this world for good. And above all, let us show kindness every single day.
Amen.
P.S. I have a whole bag of weed in my kitchen and never touched it. No desire to smoke whatsoever. This never happened before. Usually I’d have to be sick to not want to smoke…but I actually just don’t feel like it. Progress is being made! Proud of me.
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