I am tempted to write on and on about what I will now refer to as The Gap - the period of time between when I last wrote here under my other name and now, a period of seven and a half years. You know, sort of like The Blip in the MCU. (nerds gonna nerd, my friends...)
The conflict then becomes whether I want to relive those things or just give y'all the quick and dirty version, which I sort of did in my very first entry in this book.
As with my other journal - and going back to my days on Open Diary (fuck you, Bruce!) - the things I want to say come in conflict with what I feel is worth inclusion.
I'm sure there will be some more of this back and forth going forward. I ask for grace as I find my sea legs again.
Now, on to other things.
The calendar between now and Christmas is more open than usual, so I am of course cramming in as much social time and as many dates as I am able.
Speaking of dating, in the interest of setting the scene better, let me give you some details about some other women in my life whom I am dating or have dated.
A.R. - we met in a swingers chat and have become good friends. There was some sex for a while, but she asked to scale it back because she was feeling a friends-only vibe. We still have makeout sessions when we see each other, and I don't push it any further than that. If it's going to escalate again, I want it to be because she's driving the bus and wants to go there.
C. - C is a new ENM connection I made about a month ago. We connected at a birthday party for some mutual friends. We saw each other at other events before that, but hadn't really chatted until that party. There was instant chemistry, so much so that N (who was at the party with me) asked me if I asked C out that night. I did not, but C and I messaged after that and have gone on a couple of dates since then, the most recent being last Saturday. The connection feels very natural, and I can see it escalating to something more physical - it sounds like she's not looking for a partner, but she does have playmates, so I'm good with that.
N.R. - similar to A.R., N.R. is the woman half of a swinger couple that N and I met in the same group chat. We had a date with them a couple of weeks ago and would have definitely played with them were it not for the fact that it was really late and N was feeling tired, so we opted to schedule another date and call it a night. N.R. and I have been in a one on one chat since before that date, and things have gotten pretty spicy there, so I am excited to see her again in a few weeks. Her husband and N really hit it off too, although they are less talkative online than N.R. and I.
J - someone I have known and dated/played with for a few years now. We don't get to see each other a lot because she has some recurring health issues, but she's a sweetheart and I really like spending time with her. She is a model for ENM, in my opinion. She has a husband, two other partners, and other folks that she dates, and she seems to handle all of it with aplomb. She is a ninja-level expert at ENM, and I am fortunate to be in her orbit.
I'm sure there are others, and I will name them as time and entries warrant.
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