10 Things in These Foolish Things

I’m in the middle of writing my China story. Don’t know why it’s taking me so long - guess I’ve just had so much to do since I’ve gotten back. And I’m still tired. Still just barely jetlagged enough to keep dragging. But there are some good stories from China. I’ll get them out.

My BEST BUD is coming to work for my company! This is HUGE. Long story, but she was let go at her old job. It was very traumatic for her, and because I was such a dumbass wallowing in grief while she was getting fired, I wasn’t really there for her. I was so ashamed. HOWEVER, I was able to make up for it by introducing her to my company, playing up her assets to the execs, and getting her in for the interview. The rest was her work…and she got a crazy awesome director position at my workplace! This means, some China travel with her as well as lots more fun in the office. I’m thrilled, and my company is too. I’m definitely back in her good graces.

I’m still having a fling with The Bulldog. It’s super naughty and I love it. I don’t know what the turning point was, but I don’t really care. Perhaps it was his grand master plan. But he’s really delicious in bed and a cool friend out of bed. If that was his plan, it was brilliant. Where will this go? Eh. We’ll see.

The Bulldog and I do this walking thing together some nights. We both have pedometer devices and we are both striving for 10K steps a day. It’s fun because we do lots and lots of talking. The other night we did the walk and the talk and then afterwards I went back to his place and we did the fuck. I wasn’t planning on it. Really! I mean, I had my coat on, my boots on, a sweater and a scarf on, and I was walking out the door. But right as I was kissing him goodbye, he was able to get my pants and unders down and scoot me into his bedroom where he had his way with me, fully dressed! Fun times. I like walking with him.

The Bulldog and I went on a double date the other night with [Athena] and her guy! The best part of dinner was locking eyes with [A] and having this funny silent conversation while the guys talked wine (Bulldog’s family has a vineyard and winery and [A]’s boyfriend is a wine connoisseur). So many great but tiny moments in that evening. Had a wonderful but jetlagged time. Drank a bit too much so the night got blurry. I’d love a non-jetlagged do-over. How about it, [A]?

And I’m still holding onto a pseudo friendship with SP for some reason. I guess I feel like I can keep a friendship with him? He took me out for a very belated birthday last Friday. He gave me a gift (the Tory Burch fitbit bracelet, yeah!) and took me out to eat and filled me full of tequila. I spent the night at his place but refused to let him touch me. No kiss. No touch. Just…I don’t know, friendship? It’s all kinds of screwed up and I know it’s a matter of time before I never see him again, but I swear, this feels so much better than that awful, painful grief I was going through. I know he’s gone and I’m finally, FINALLY starting to be OK with it.

I am going to visit some old friends over Thanksgiving weekend in my old town in the Great Midwest! I am really, really excited about this, even though I’ll only be there for two days. The Friday after Thanksgiving I hope to see a fellow Proseboxer who never writes here but who tends to leave notes here and there. I hope to also see a couple of other blasts from my past. I wish I could remember their old pseudonyms. Maybe I’ll go back and search for them and re-read about them. Anyway, my friend Jen is turning 40. I haven’t seen here since her wedding 7 years ago and that was the last time I was back in the old state/hood. I think I could get into some good trouble. This could get verrrry interesting. I know, I’m too old for this, but I don’t care. Notice a theme happening here?

Thanksgiving is gonna be very, very quiet. No cooking. My parents are coming to visit me and we’re going out to eat. Then we’re going to the movies. Yeah. Mellow and no stress. I like that.

I can’t believe this year is coming to a close. What a fucked up year. Truly. It kinda sucked from the very beginning. I need to close this year on a good note.

I am a little lonely. I miss OD and that kind of community. I hope to do more here. Next up: China entry.