Faith in Book 1

Have faith, have faith, you say

There's nothing you can't do if you just have a little faith

But I've been praying on my knees for so long the wounds no longer clot 

Just listen, you say. Just listen, you say 

But it's been so long without a sound,

And I'm so far away from the light

That it's only darkness that provides comfort 

Wrapped around me tight like a blanket 

I had my heart out and I bled for a connection 

But I didn't find it in holy books or steeples or stars or crescents

I found it in people. In people who suffer 

Often in silence

I found it in tragic beauty and in ties that bind through trauma

And in the human experience 

This is where I find my faith 

So take yours and your gods 

I wouldn't be able to hear them anyway