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Notes Scrawled in Lipstick in Book 1
Your blonde and red hair reminds me that we can be young for as long as we want to be... Which is wonderful because I don't know for how long or how gracefully I can grow old... It all happen...
She wants to make my life better, she says. But... She says I deserve it. But... She says that I make her happy. But... I don't know if I believe it. And then there's the dynamic. She crav...
Calm Like A Bomb in Book 1
hah, I didn't even last a day. Anyway, I asked an ex the other day if she remembers how calm I used to be in stressful situations and/or crises and how it'd sometimes tick 'em off. I said I'...
I am going to write something in here everyday until December 31st (probably not) and it's going to be amazing (probably not) and you will all read it in wonder (probably not). Anyway, I can'...
Coincidences abound...she was the one from that night. What are the chances? I wish my fingers would wake up...a covid side effect? It's Christmas. Praise Jesus!
From The Vault in Book 1
This pressure keeps building Step off my chest and let me breathe I know all the things you’ll say Save ‘em, I don’t want to hear ‘em I’m fucking done with your theatrics I can’t keep ...
Searching For a Former Clarity in Book 1
Let this be the endLet this be the last songLet this be the endLet all be forgiven Because really, what else is there? When you look back on your life, close to death, what do you see? Me? Not...
OK Let me digress, as you've been keeping me sane, and it might be inappropriate but whoever in your life that's supposed to be telling you this, isn't. So, I'm going to tell you straight up....
I missed the first two days, that's probably not outta character. Saturday was another panic attack. I wish I knew why these were happening. It's new. My doc wants to medicate the problem a...
A Couple Weeks in Book 1
Or weekends that she'll be here and that'll be that. It's not a surprise. She wasn't destined to be here for long, her future is brighter than this dusty watering hole. I s'pose that's th...
This isn't Really the Start in Book 1
Cancer, aneurism, stroke, heart attack My skin peeling back to expose an empty sore as wide as a black hole All I can think about is death - mine, specifically. I feel like I smell like it. ...