All Ya Need Is Love Wednesday, February 09, 2005
All you need is love... so what happens to someone when they can't get that one thing they need?
I am seriously sick of being here. Lately I have felt more alone than I have in a really long time. I feel ugly. I feel unlovable. I have felt seriously like ending it all. There are so many nights now that I just sit here and wonder, are things ever going to get better? I mean really. How probable is it? Am I just imagining that there is a chance of me finding love?
Another Valentines day that has no meaning for me. There isn't a man out there that looks at me and feels lucky to have me. Just as I don't have a man to feel lucky to have. I see all of my friends in love and it really hurts. I mean, I get so jealous of their families. I am jealous of my sisters. I am jealous of all my exes who are now married.
There are some days I can't even look in the mirror. I am embarrassed to be myself. Why did I turn out to be this way? Somedays, I wish I could be someone else. I am not good enough.
A life with no love isn't a life worth living.
Some days, I really don't like myself. This is one of those days.
God, please find me love. Please. Please. Please. And God, please let me love them back. Please. Please. Please.
Her
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I honestly know how you feel. My mom has told me this and I'll pass it on to you. How can you expect or want anyone to Love you when you don't Love yourself? You need to become happy with you before you find someone. That special person will come. I thought I was happy. Well, the guy ended up being a prick. I refuse to settle. Give it time. Things will work out. Good things come to those who wait. [One Crazy Mom] 2/9/2005 1:05:14 AM
hug [JKD Student] 2/9/2005 1:19:23 AM
I know someone that loves U!!! :D Chadfound 2/9/2005 5:33:21 AM
"How probable is it?"
Damn woman! Very probable. Now, if you said "This was the best day of my life" (and it was) and then you said "How probable is it?" then im going to go with not very probable.
Anyhow, ive read your diary enough to know this is not, by far, the first time you have felt this way.
And did things turn around? Each and every time. Every time. Hang in there. [LastInLine]
2/9/2005 10:08:44 AM
you are not ugly you are beautiful
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