A phenomenally phenomenal Woman. Still I rise.
These poems.
I can’t honestly tell you what I feel when I listen to these words when read by Maya.
I know I can do it. I know that I am not alone.
It makes the pain not so real.
I’m brave. And oh so proud. I feel the pain of a woman and an entire people, more so a world. I feel the pain of me–“a half-breed nigger bitch”. My head is bursting these hateful words. Then I remember still I rise. So many before me–Miss B, my ancestors. I am here, I am me because of them. The pain that just words is enough. The pain of the actions so much more a prostrating experience. I will continue the rise of myself and my people.
Today I had another incident with Major PainInTheAss. All day, until about 9p I didn’t see him out of his room. I thought–actually hoped for a second he was party of the dearly departed list. Then the Major, Osiris bless his soul, decided after everyone was in bed to make his appearence. He came out when D Nice was away. Spewed his hateful slop at me. Meanwhile I’m just playing Pokemon Emerald and waiting for D Nice to return. When he hears her coming in he tells me that he is just going to sit there and antagonize me. We sit there under his hateful eyes and just giggle back and forth about him and work life in general. He continues the make grunts. When D Nice goes out for a break he watches her leave, as soon as the door closed he starts in on me again. I’m not proud of it but i may have said a few snide things back. He ends up a foot from my face. At this point I had no choice but to fully engage and stand up. No more Pokemon, time for a IRL battle. He gets in my face and starts commenting on my every last physical attribute. Of course he had to tell me again that I am only a half-breed nigger bitch. I start to leave as soon as he started in with the I’m going to knock you out talk.. As I was walking to the nurses’s station i get bopped on the face. I go over and call for a little help. Then dear Flo comes and gives me a little back up until Trollie comes and tries to defuse the situation. Man how I wanted to let his neck meet my starry Converse shoe!
Ever since the minor fire incident I’ve apparently been on his shit list.
Picture all of the zombie hall in a small room. The wails that Shorty sometimes lets ring, to the cries of LAAAAAAADY that Lady lets go it’s already a hectic place. Then I see the Major over in the corner with a Camel in one hand and a lighter in the other. I go over to him and calmly explain to him that the O2 room is right behind him. He flips out, thankfully Adonis was in the room and comes over. Adonis also asks for the cigs and lighter Major gives him lip and actually lights the cigarette. That’s when they both came out of his possession and into mine. Ever since this incident he has had a vendetta against me.
After the incident with Major I went out to smoke for some reason Still I rise popped into my head, then Phenomenal Woman. When I read these it fills me with such pride, pain and bravery. No matter what is said to me I can carry on because of the people who came before me and experienced much worse.
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