NUMB FOR THE HOLIDAYS in My Reality

NO HOLIDAY CHEER, I’m so not ready for the holidays, any of it, I’m not ready for THANKSGIVING,I’m dam sure not ready for Christmas or New Years, I guess the last couple of years has numbed me to holidays, and if you know me that not like me at all. I can’t buy anything for anybody (and I’m working), i might get a card or two, have a great holiday meal, and that’s it, I’m working all three holidays this year, so I don’t have the luxury of celebrating any, so there’s that. Don’t get me wrong folks, the holidays brings out great memories for me(even if it I’m the ONLY person in my family to remember them), my family all together, cousins,aunts,uncles, opening presents, but since I’m older now, I’ve seen the darker side of the holidays.....BLACK FRIDAY was my wakeup call, I’ve worked two B.F. in two different places, and its brutal.... Customers knocking other over, people cussing you out, running you down, them calling you names, asking question after question..... It really saps the holiday cheer right out of you. I would put up lights right after Thanksgiving, but I’m not too sure I’ll do it this year, the Christmas tree we have is down in our basement..... Do I really feel like dragging it up the stairs? There’s nothing to put under it? So why even put the dam thing up, to remind you that YOU HAVE NO PRESENTS FOOL........they say the Holidays is prime suicide season, I’m completely not there, but I can somewhat understand why someone would, being by yourself regularly is one thing..... But on THE HOLIDAYS........ it’s the worst feeling on earth, and who can survive that?? THE HOLIDAYS, it was made to CELEBRATE, LOVE, COOK, OPEN PRESENTS, AND TO SHOW YOURSELF HOW FAR BEHIND YOU REALLY ARE WITH EVERYONE ELSE....awesome.