Believer
Took me over like a fever
Caught you hiding in the smoke, smoke, smoke
Like a meteor, I glow, glow, glow
Am I drowning or am I on fire?
Into the sea, out of fire,
All that burning.
Every morning, I wake up in a reverie, the lingering scents leaking out of my dreams and enveloping my reality, just enough to make me want to get up every morning smiling, but not enough to keep the illusion going and I realize my eremition.
Such a loud crescendo, every morning. It’s irritating that life has become so placid, predictable and comfortable.
I realize I’m at my most uncomfortable when everything is working out, everything is working well.
I’ve always lived a life of struggle. Something to fix, someone to fix, some anxiety to deal with. Some depression blocking my door, some hateful memory keeping me from listening to songs I previously loved.
Now I have no great depression to wallow in. All my insecurities have left without a note or a goodbye.
Why do I feel incomplete unless I have some flaw to work on, something that drains my energy time and happiness?
Do I always need to have a person to fix to feel like I’m worth something to someone?
I feel different today, different today
Different today, I do
I feel different today, different today
Different today ‘bout you
Now I’m just here spinning.
Spinnin’, spinnin’, spinnin’, spinnin’
Spinnin’, spinnin’, spinnin’, spinnin’
Spinnin’, spinnin’, spinnin’ out
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