XDaddy(Him)Not my Daddy in Just me

Ok, so its been quite a roller-coaster. Talking to Him for Years, letting Him control me, loving Him. He said he loves me, said our bond is strong, but He is not my Dom, i still acted like he was (stupid me in love) yeah He let me, it was natural for us. But really, He didn’t want me He only wanted a FWB.. so very hurtful. How does one love someone and only want that? im so stupid. i wanted more, i wanted what would never happen. He always said His heart was black, i saw different, maybe that was rose colored glasses. We are no longer talking, and im ok with it this time. He was supposed to be my safe place, but when i needed Him to be He couldn’t be, i just made Him feel attacked and uncomfortable when i just wanted reassurance and understanding. He is toxic for me, i really see that now,