Work: Well, the big news is that today was Inbox Nazi’s LAST DAY?!! On Friday, he’d rescheduled our team meeting for TODAY instead of our regular Thursday. So before our meeting there was a little bit of a texting frenzy regarding what we thought this meeting was about and IF it was something we needed to be prepared for (besides our normal team meeting). I’d actually sent a text to the person who should be on MY team asking her if she thought this meeting was something out of the ordinary, and she said that she thought it was because of a travel conflict with Head Cat. I then told her that I was relieved because I like to come to meetings prepared and don’t like to be taken off guard. Little did I know! On the one hand it came as a big shock, but on the other hand, he had been quite MIA over the last several months, and as you are aware, I’ve been talking separately with the CEO about taking more of a leadership role. I suppose that’s coming up pretty quickly. I think if it comes with a decent salary bump (which I doubt), I’ll be happier here. And if it doesn’t, I am going to have to really start pounding the pavement on the next search. It sucks that jobs don’t last for long these days. I feel like I’m always potentially on the brink of financial challenges. I need to change this mindset to one of abundance, but I also know I need to get on the ball and start things moving forward. More to come on that front soon!
Dating Life: After my last entry, I kinda went quiet on Bumble (the only dating app I’m using right now), so it’s on pause, I guess? I’m just so weary when it comes to dating. I don’t want to put any effort into the apps. I need a meet-cute, but that involves getting out into the world and having the balls to flirt. Honestly, I do get out there, but it might be nice to take myself to dinner or something sometime at a hip place. There are so many cool places in this town. Hmmm. Maybe this weekend.
Friendship Relationships: I hung out with Diane on Saturday morning. We did our normal walk and talk on the trail and then tea on a cafe deck. I like her because she loves going out and about and knows so much about this city. She looks nothing like you’d think a super cool person would look (she’s kind of frumpy even though everything she owns/wears is designer), but she’s totally into cool music and events and goes and does and sees. She’s headed to the Olympics in a week-ish and I’m envious of that in some ways, but in other ways I’m like, no way would I want to get in Olympic-sized crowds right now. I don’t want to even get started on politics, so I won’t even go there in this entry, but it would still be nice to be going someplace cool. In other friend news, I feel sad that I’ve been essentially blown off by C. and even his suicidal brother. They are clearly into their own things right now and have a lot going on. It could be temporary, but it just hurts a little to feel like my friendship with C. has fizzled. It’s funny how, just like dating, friendships don’t get easier as you age - they get harder! They are harder to maintain and harder to get people to do things! I know even for myself, now that I’m not drinking anymore and trying to eat so healthy I don’t seem to get myself out socially and it doesn’t bother me that much. But I know it’s so important to be social and interact with society, as crazy as society is right now.
Volunteering: That’s another reason why I am sticking with my commitment to volunteer at least once a month. I jokingly told my parents that my two weeks taking care of them was my volunteer event for the month of July, but I actually have an event lined up this Saturday that I’m super excited about. I’ll tell you about it after I do it, but I’ll give you a hint: it has to do with my new-found interest in thrifting, antiquing, and vintage shopping! More to come on that topic!
Mom and Dad: Hanging in there. Mom had some outpatient eye surgery on her remaining eye (remember, she had a stroke in one eye a few months ago and essentially lost her eyesight in that eye, so the remaining eye needed a surgery for glaucoma and then a stent-like thing place to release some of the pressure to keep her from going blind in the other eye). Her memory gets worse by the day and poor dad is hanging on and trying to get this home health care stuff going. I asked him to please send me some information he’s looking at so I could take over some of the load, and he keeps putting me off saying he can do it. I’m frustrated by this because I want to help, but he wants to do this. I understand. He’s not helpless. But if something happens to him, it will all go downhill fast. Sure, my brother is there and my SIL will be back from China in a couple of weeks, but it’s too much for my dad to try to do all of this AND help mom with all of her eye drops and other medications. I’m headed back for the day in a week and a half. I’ll bring a bunch of food and treats that they love and try to get some things settled. And if I need to I’ll go back and stay again. I’m grateful for however long I can keep this remote job going so that I can be there as needed.
Health and Body: My own mind, body and soul seem to be in a pretty good place. I made it to my stretch weight goal (which means I’m down 25 lbs since January 1 and do NOT want to lose any more weight - I’m 56 years old and weigh less than I did in high school) and now the focus is to continue to build muscle and flexibility. I still workout every single morning and stretch for mobility. I continue to walk 12K + steps every day (I never did bump up my goal to 15K, but that’s still under consideration). Tomorrow I go back to the dermatologist for my 3-month body scan and to show him how my recent skin cancer scars are healing. Everything looks good to me, so I’m hoping he’ll give me a glowing report and not have to slice anymore barnacles off of me. I’m also pleased to report that my little alopecia bald spot seems to have filled back in. I honestly can’t find the spot and the divet where he shot the steroids has kind of filled back in. So, fingers crossed, I’m over that issue. I’ll let you know what he says. Ah, the mysteries of the body. The last thing I need to check off my list this month is to get my annual head/neck CT scan scheduled to determine that my aneurysm is still stable. That’s supposed to happen in early August, but I haven’t heard any word from either my doc or the radiology department, so I’ve been putting in the calls to figure that out. Honestly, from a physical standpoint, I feel very, very healthy. But because there have been so many things wrong with me medically, any little ache or twinge still sends me into a panic. I still sometimes wonder if cancer is just lurking. But I suppose that’s why I am so heavily surveilled. I do need work on my visualization skills. I want to journal daily and somehow that’s fallen off track, so I have things to work on. I will never be finished and will always be my own work in progress. I’m okay with that as long as I can keep going! I do love life so much and want to stay healthy for the rest of it!
So, this Monday is coming to a close. I’m glad I was able to update. I will come back tomorrow and fill some more things in. There’s so much to write!
xox,
GS
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