Keith, Help Your Brother ] Sunday, November 07, 2004
Tonight's topic is my ex, Kumbi. Him and I broke up about 3 years ago. The first two years we hardly spoke, mainly because I wouldn't speak to him. This last year we began speaking again. I have really tried so hard to mend our relationship so that we can at least be friends. I don't want anything more. I just want things to be "fine between us." To do this I had to really try hard to help him. He's breaking up with his wife and I got him into an apartment here where I work/live. I have bent over backwards to get him the exact apartment he wanted, the security deposit he could afford, etc. He claims he appreciates it. He even told me he was going to start paying me back the money he owes me.
Ever since I called the police on Kumbi (three years ago) I kept wondering if I really should have. He held me down in my apartment telling me how he screwed all these different women while with me and totally not letting me get up. I was handling it until he looked me into my eyes and gave me the most evil look I have ever seen. It was a half smile as he looked down at me and said, "you better get checked for STDs. I have something you should really probably know about." At that point I couldn't handle it any longer and I turned my head and with full force I clamped down on his arm with my teeth with so much force my head shook. That's when he got up off of me, grabbed me, and through me against a couch. I called the police at that point and ever since I wondered if I did the right thing.
This weekend I finally figured it out. I do now believe 100% I did the right thing. Kumbi told me his g/f (not his wife) has a domestic voilence charge against him. This means he did something again. Then this weekend he came over very drunk. He was so drunk he could hardly talk. He asked if he could come over "just to see me." When he walked in I knew it might be a long night. He was so angry. He was cussing about the bar he had just left and how if he didn't leave he was going to start fighting people. Now, Kumbi has always been a bit of a big talker. However, it has changed now. Everytime he gets mad he starts talking about killing people. He starts claiming he could take out whole bars and not even care. I mean he talks about shooting people. Every time I talk to him it gets worse and worse. I believe he's on the edge of doing something stupid that he's going to regret. When he was over I started a bit on edge. I felt like if he had a gun on him that night I may be dead or someone else. Don't get me wrong, he wasn't mad at me, but at the world instead. It was like light switches were being turned on and off on him. One minute he was irrate, the next minute he was all calm. I believe he needs help. There is something going on in his head that no one can see, not even himself. The messages in his brain are getting all mixed up. He definatly has an anti-social disorder. He needs help.
Anyway, my weekend was ok. Nothing too special happened. My neighbor came over and we played Nintendo-game cube for a while. It was pretty fun.
Her
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wow..that had to be hard on you to sit with him all irate. maybe there is someone the police can contact to have his mental capacity or chemical balance checked when he goes in for his violence case. [muted exposure] 11/8/2004 2:05:52 AM
[LastInLine] 11/8/2004 10:13:22 AM
ya, that must of been hard. and yea in high school (next year) i'm going to take writing classes but i have nooo idea what i want to be:P(not that i should no by now but our advisory teach says we should no byt the beinging of gr. 9) but yea note me later [loved loser] 11/8/2004 6:40:10 PM
I'm sorry you had to go through all of that, but you definitely came out of it a strong person (maybe you were before?), I don't know if I could be as forgiving as you are.
RYN: My mind is going crazy, trying to figure out what you might have seen in my dream that I overlooked. I suppose it's for the best. Either way, I appreciate your looking out for me, I take great comfort knowing that. [Solitary17]
11/9/2004 12:58:02 AM
You say i came out the winner but all i ever wanted was you, and now i think that i am finally losing you for ever, and that scares me, you are all i have ever wanted,so i guess i am the big loser. The day you started "breathing again" was the day my heart broak. I started felling like i stop you from being happy, and that was too much for me to bear. [Houseofstone] [p]
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