Dreamer Monday, October 25, 2004
As far back as I can remember I have always been a dreamer. I remember lying in my bed late at night and letting my mind go crazy with all kinds of dreams. I would lie awake imagining having special powers. I would imagine being able to fly, being able to be invisible, and even being able to be invisible while flying. There were many nights I would go to bed a little early just so that I could imagine beating up bullies just by staring at them and beaming bolts of electricity at them.
My imagination didn’t just run freely while getting ready to go to sleep. There were many days that while sitting at my desk at school I would find myself deeply engrossed in some dream of being in some far away land riding horses across vast meadows. Then these horses would sprout wings and carry me across endless skies all the while I looked down watching all the neighbor kids point at me with great amounts of jealousy. I would be extremely happy, laughing loudly with out a care in the world. Life was always perfect in my dreams.
The problem with having these dreams is simple. When I was a child, dreaming was accepted. It was looked at as being creative and having a wonderful imagination. Many days I would be complimented on my imagination, and the compliments would just feed my desire to keep on dreaming. My life almost became a complete fantasy. It was almost as though reality didn’t exist, or if it did, I really didn’t have a need for it. However, now that I am adult all the dreams I still have, are somehow running out of time to come true. As a child, I had all my whole life to have them come true. Now my dreams may not be of flying, but I still have them… and society doesn’t seem to accept adults with thoughts of fairy tales. So unfortunately it feels as though my days of dreaming are coming to an end and all that I am left with is this bare reality. Now that I am being forced to live in reality instead of in a fantasy it feels like I am living in a whole new world, and it’s a bit scary. I’d give anything to have just one of my dreams come true so that I could show the adult world that dreams do come true.
~~~Or perhaps I have just watched too many Disney movies~~~~
Her
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I hope your dreams come true... [Solitary17] 10/25/2004 12:43:03 AM
I dont think dreaming is only for kids.. but then again... in society as a whole, my vaules and ideals dont go very far, he-he
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