Dumb, Dumber, Dumberer, and Stupid Tuesday, October 05, 2004
Well, I have done some thinking about the whole lost friends thing of mine. I am not that hurt about it. In all reality, I am kind of relieved about it. Kyle, Jeff, Lisa, and Wendy are really different from me. Maybe this is just me trying to make myself feel better about the whole thing, but I really feel that I don't belong hanging out with a woman that doesn't shave under her arms (ever) and a woman that thought it was competely ok to sleep with her man, (with out a condom) even though she knew for a fact she was carrying the AIDS virus. I feel I can write about this because none of my readers know these people personally. I hate feeling that I am "above" these people, because I know that I shouldn't feel this way. But come on! Wendy has missed 3 periods and is throwing up, and thinks... "well maybe I'm not pregnant... I don't wanna take a test though." When asked why not she just shruggs her shoulders. Denial is powerful, but not that powerful!
Stupid... Stupid... Stupid.
I am not going to say that I am perfect for I am not in anyway a "better" person than them. I just feel that perhaps I am in a different social class then them and that I think a bit differently. Again, maybe I am just thinking all this because I just lost 3 friends and I want to feel better about myself. I really don't know.
I do know this. Out of Jeff, Kyle, Lisa, and Wendy... I am really going to miss Jeff. He was my best friend for so long. He helped me through so many things. He was always there for me. He watched me cry night after night when Kumbi and I broke up. He held me and told me that things will get better. Jeff has always been there for me and I am truly going to miss him. However, I can not remain friends with him while he's dating Lisa. Lisa just doesn't trust me with him. Jeff and I lived together for 2 years straight and have never had sex. We never even kissed each other until about 2 weeks prior to him meeting Lisa... and the only reason we kissed then was because we were drunk... However, I am off the subject. I really am going to miss Jeff. I am going to miss all the times that we both would strike out at the bar and laugh about it driving home... and then joke around how we should get married. I should have married him. I was just being foolish... I guess. Oh well... it doesn't matter now. He now has AIDS.... thanks to that b**. Argh.
I feel better. I really do. I no longer have to worry about having Wendy keep her arms down at the bar, and watching Lisa inject needles into her stomach. As for Kyle... I don't have to worry about him throwing his fits because he didn't bowl well or because he's just a plain big-headed baby. I am much better with out them.
Umm yeah.. so there.
-end of rant-
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wow, that almost sounds like it could be on a talk show... does Jeff know she has AIDS? [aletta78] 10/6/2004 5:26:47 AM
ughh. Yea. You Actually are much better then them.
And if that girl knowingly gave someone AIDS, well, thats just the same as premediated murder.
maybe worse. [LastInLine]
10/6/2004 10:29:03 AM
You are much better without them, and I can't believe that girl was having unprotected sex knowing damn well she has AIDS. That's messed up.
[HawkSF]
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