Father in psycho shit

I heard my father was going to get the surgery direct and then he got transported to a surgent in the hospital of Umeå. I took the train and met him when he woke up.
He looked scared and confused and did not want to let go of my hand. My father told me that he thought he had died during the night on the operation table.

The cancer got part of his spine, so he will no longer be able to walk.

He is 78 years old and he still need to undergo another surgery to remove cancer svulst, then treatment.

We talked about remodeling his house so he can go around with a wheel chair. The thing that scares him the most is if he ends up on an institution.

I think he felt that his time is running out and I am thinking the same. Even if he defeats the cancer I wounder how many years he got left, not so many.
I am thinking of bad things I have done by not visiting him on christmas and how irritated I could get on him sometimes.
Now when I know it is not so much time left I feel so incredible sad.

Last updated May 06, 2024