Work: Maybe I’m just bored, but I’m just not into it right now, and I really, really should be! Right now is the time I should be striking while the iron is hot. I should be spending more of my personal time networking and such. No more excuses of being tired in the evenings. Must get out there.
Went on a quickie business trip this week. Visited the Walmart corporate office. Actually, visited my company’s showroom/office in Bentonville, AR - right around the corner from the WM corporate office. I’d never been there before, but man…I just can’t imagine working and living in that town. Sure, it’s cute and quaint, but, wow. The Walmart corporate office is just yuck. Looks like a warehouse, as you might imagine.
I did have some fun, though. Upgraded on my flights going there and back, so champagne. The older, possibly straight, male flight attendant took a shine to me, so more champagne (including a split to go!). My counterparts and colleagues are pretty fun, so we had a nice dinner together, but by the end of dinner I was spent. We went back to the hotel and checked in at the Hilton Garden Inn, where the front desk guy gave me a key to an occupied room. Awkward.
By the time I finally got settled into my room, I fell asleep with most of my clothes on (no pants, but top and bra…) and woke in the middle of the night like that with TV blaring and all of the lights on. I haven’t done that in a while, and I always feel like shit the next day. This time was no exception.
But the meeting went well and I had champagne on the flight home and guess who was waiting for me at the gate because he was on his way to NYC? Yep, SP. He had time to drink more champagne with me at the vino bar in the terminal. It was absolutely sneaky, which made it exciting. We’ll cover that later…
Weight/Workout I suck and need to just get on the ball and start over. My Nike+ Fuelband has all but died and I have read that they (Nike) are getting out of the fuelband and working on this Apple product that will be like a watch or somesuch. Now I need to find some other source of wearable inspiration.
I loved wearing the fuelband because it was a motivator for me. It was almost like a piece of jewelry, but it was fairly industrial looking so that it was something that I noticed – and other people noticed it too. I have worn the fuelband every day since October of 2012. Even to formal events.
Researching wearable tech now. I don’t like the look of a watch because I wear fashion watches every day. I want something that is more like a techy accessory. Something like the fuelband, like a Jawbone or something. I just don’t know what should be my next step. Clearly I’m loyal to the idea – I just want to make sure that I move on to a product that is loyal to their customer base.
So, with regards to the workouts. As you know, I’ve been walking, walking, walking like crazy. And that’s fine and good, but just doesn’t quite cut it. Because I’ve found out that in order to get the benefits of a good ol’ WORKOUT, I need to be walking faster than my happy, leisurely pace!
I still do my Saturday morning Boot Camp, and I love that. I found out that the guy who does the free classes at the park close to my apartment also does more free classes on Wednesday evenings at another park close to my apartment!! Here’s the deal: I just have to remember to bring my workout clothes to work because I cut it too close to go home and change and get to that park (which is actually on my way home). So..the plan for next Wednesday evening is: change clothes at work around 5:30 and then jump in the car and arrive at the park around 5:55 in time for the 6PM class! I timed it yesterday sans workout gear and ended up going to drink champagne and eat beet salad and hummus at the nearby Moroccan restaurant!
It was nice, but I didn’t exercise and I was in bed aby 8PM. Next week, for sure! At least I have a plan!
Next steps: potentially a personal trainer. I’m in the research stage. How much should I pay an hour for a personal trainer? Anyone? AMo? I need one who will kick my butt in the diet/nutrition part as well.
Pet: After a somewhat annoying silence, have had a couple of good conversations with the Italian Greyhound Rescue people. I figured out why they were hesitant – the dog I’d said I was interested in is not right for me and where I live. The director was afraid I’d be upset, but I wasn’t in the least! I mean, I want to make sure that there is a match, and if this particular dog is not good with downtown life (skittish around cars and noises), then it’s certainly not the right place for him! Tonight I have a phone interview and then they are going to set up an in-home interview. We’ll see where that leads! I’m glad I’m going about this quite slowly. I guess that’s me – cautious almost to a fault. [sigh]
I hope this all works out!
Love: Eh, who knows? There’s an article in August’s Vogue by Joyce Maynard that has me hopeful again. After reading the first two paragraphs, I saw myself in nearly every, single, word. I can’t find it online, so I’ll summarize a bit:
After many, many failed relationships (including a divorce 21 years earlier), she’d decided to take things less seriously and take a last-minute job teaching writing in Italy. She was online dating and had just met a guy who asked her if she’d take him with her, and in keeping with her less-seriousness state, she agreed!
She flew in a day earlier than he did and happened to meet an older woman in the airport traveling solo and shared a taxi with her. The woman shared stories of losing the love of her life and deciding to keep living her life to the fullest. When the dude flew into Italy to meet Joyce, he downright SUCKED, so she asked him to leave and ended up having a wonderful, exciting time without him…many things happened, including a fantastic friendship with the older woman, and she returned home still feeling hopeful despite all of the bullshit of this asshole dude.
Bottom line, she never gave up on love. Got back online. Met another guy who was actually so well suited for her, and got married…
So look. It’s not that I’m looking for marriage, per se. It’s just that I’m not throwing in the towel.
I do have SO MUCH FUN with SP. But what is that going to bring me? How do I get to have fun with him and have the love of my life enter? Why is it that he is EVERYTHING I want in a friend/husband from the fun and loving side, but NOTHING I want from the trust issue side? How is this resolvable? Is it resolvable?
And UGH. I got a text from his son the other day. It was nice, asking me how I’m doing, but there was a photo attached of him in his fatigues (from his military boarding school), and it was just creepy to me – the angle of the photo was strange in that it was kind of a threatening pose. No smile, squinty eyes. I know that boys want to look tough and thug-like, but…just weird. I suck - I didn’t reply because I don’t want to engage with him. Is that wrong? I don’t know. But seriously, I could go the rest of my life without ever interacting with him again and I wouldn’t feel badly.
On the rest of the love front, I just don’t know. Having some funny interactions with Tinder guys. I’m only occasionally on that app, so I’m sure it appears that I’m ignoring people, but oh well. I’m just not that into it.
Here’s the bottom line: I just want someone there who’s got my back. You know? That’s all I want. Someone who’s there…present…available, trustworthy and not a dick. Is that simply too much to ask?
OK. Meetings, meetings. LOVE!!!
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