Debbie has to return to the surgeon again, earlier actually. She has to go back tomorrow. She has been bleeding since surgery and has been in constant pain. On Friday, when I convinced her to call the surgeon's office, she was warm to the touch. I thought she felt feverish.
She is in a huge rush for surgery. She wants it done, the parts removed. I can understand maybe, but they have told her there is no cancer, though she seems determined that it is. And she still wants the operation to be an open procedure, not using scopes. I do not know why she wants the extra pain of a huge incision.
She is complaining about not being able to have sex. I have told her there are things we can do beside normal sex, whatever that is as I have done some damn freaky shit in my day. But try as I may I cannot seem to convince her that we can work around this. She has gotten mad at me, but I have made offers and she is the one that has not taken up on the opportunity.
Today we did spend some quality time together as we went on a charity motorcycle ride. I thought it was going to be a short little 10 mile run, but it was over 100 miles. It was ending where I expected, but it was going there after going cross coutry. We dropped out after a few miles as I knew Deb could never keep up. It was going to be out on the Interstate Highway and she has never riden there. After leaving the group we headed into town for a nice relaxed lunch at a lovely little place I have come to adore. It is the Yellow Deli, great food, kind wonderful people and a simply beautiful restaurant inside. There is much peace and good Karma in that place, it is very relaxing and happy there and Deb loves it too.
After that we rode home, parked the bikes and curled up on the sofa watching silly television shows. Even Maggie cuddled up with us. It was great, much needed time for us.
And now we have all medicated and are ready for bed.
I am riddled with anxiety about her trip to the Doctor tomorrow.
I pray for the best.
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