3:33pm
Well, I guess OD's dead. I haven't tried to access the site today since I'm at work, but I got home in time last night to take one last look. I got the message saying it was going offline at midnight eastern time and looked at the clock to see I had 3 minutes left. Enough time to check for any last notes, glance at any remaining favorite entries, and log in for the very last time.
It seems so surreal that it's gone. I downloaded one last time, because I'm mostly paranoid about missing anything, and tried to get an XML file but missed the deadline. Oh well. I don't plan on importing that anywhere anyways. It's done. That whole thing is over. Even if I was right in the middle of a life transformation.
Starting fresh must have been the move the world wanted.
This way I would have to dig through that txt file in order to reread old entries. We all know that'll take more effort than I'm willing to put in on any given night. Unless I'm super lonely and/or intoxicated. ;-) I think this will ultimately be a good thing. It seems to have brought a bunch of people back who were once gone. Prosebox isn't so horrible as of now. Although I haven't tried to write any entries yet so I'm not sure how that will work out. I've only been poking through entries from faves I followed over.
Maybe this will be a way to sorta re-invent myself. After writing on one site for so long you tend to find a certain voice and stick with that. It's hard to change your habits. If I said things a little differently it might make me seem like a complete stranger. So this could work in my favor.
Only I really don't know how I want to come off....this new era I'm in is pretty foreign to me and I haven't figured out how to maneuver the territory. I'll have to give this some thought...
In other news: I had to run the office by myself for about a half day today. My mother thought it was a great idea to lose a crown last night and ended up having to rush to her dentist this morning. She did manage three clients before she took off. We rescheduled a couple others and I spent the afternoon fielding calls and stalling clients. It wasn't as bad as I'd thought it might be. I was able to answer most questions and set a couple appointments for tomorrow and next week. Sometimes I just have a hard time explaining stuff, especially in Spanish so that caused a tiny bit of anxiety.
It went worse for Mom though. Turns out she had an infection on one side and then the missing crown on the other. I told her last week when her cheek swelled up that she should check her jaw and/or gums, but she couldn't find anything. I've lived with stupid jaw problems long enough to know that that was where the swelling was coming from. People should listen to me more often! hah.
All's well that ends well.
sidenote: I know you'll think I'm saying this just because she's my mother but honestly, I cannot ever imagine being as strong as she is. I actually worry that if I ever have kids I won't be able to handle it. I'll do everything wrong and never have enough time/patience/ability to raise them correctly. How the heck she can take care of clients while dealing with infections and dental pain, run to the dentist an hour away, and then come back and still finish a full days work is completely beyond me. I don't think I would be able to do all that.
And I am only now starting to realize that she does all this stuff while acting like it's no big deal. Sure she complains, about totally mundane things [and it drives me nuts lol], but never about not being able to do something because she's tired/sick/injured. ugh. Just writing about this makes me feel like I'll be so inadequate.
Back to work now.
rose.
6:47pm
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