3:17pm
There was something very important that I wanted to discuss here, but now I can't seem to remember what it was exactly. By that I mean, it probably wasn't that important at all. Some rambling about some-one/thing or other.
A huge part of me wants to tell you all the thoughts I am having about CK. But I just can't. Like putting it into words makes it weird and crazy and I don't want to come off that way [even though I already do?...] I still can't explain any of it. It really doesn't make sense. Not in my head, or in words, or anywhere.
It would be nice to let my thoughts wander off somewhere else. To someone else. They don't though. It doesn't happen at night, or first thing in the morning. It doesn't happen when some good looking guy comes strolling through my office [at least not for very long]. It's just always there. Constant thoughts.
And the crazy part is that I also have constant thoughts of all the reasons why this can't work. Why he's all the things I never wanted.
sigh
Anyway, it's raining outside. I'm out of work and back home waiting on Downton Abbey to start. We've desperately needed this rain so it's wonderful to listen to it fall out the window. We have had a couple days of light rain this last week, but nothing too serious. Certainly not as much as we really need. Every little bit helps though.
It reminds me of getting all the things you need, when you need them most. Funny how that keeps happening.
Tomorrow marks Day One of my favorite week! Ok, technically, my favorite holiday comes on Friday, but I'm going to try to stay in this happy, positive, mood for the entire week leading up to it. Don't even ask me why I love Valentine's Day. It's just one of those days. It's been my favorite for a long time. Just thinking about it makes me smile.
Something to do with the world loving, or something. Every one and every thing seems so joyous and in love. I adore that whole feeling. I wish it lasted for more than a day! Already picked out my favorite dress to wear and convinced Mom to be my valentine so we can go out to dinner after work [hopefully we can get out before 9 o'clock that day!]. hehe!
Also, I just realized I still have to mail out my Valentine cards. Yeah! I'm taking it that far this year. I can't help myself! Love is in the air! [not like for me, or anything, but that's ok. I'm in no real hurry!]
The show's starting so I better head out. Fit in some relaxing time before bed. I haven't had a day off in three weeks and counting so I need to find time to settle my brain and continue on to the next day.
rose.
9:01pm
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