Since my last post, at least. Things are a lot different now. My persevering actions from then up to this point has led me to a future where I can change things in this world if I just try. There’s something to be said for the butterflies you’ll unleash when you have the right network and influence.
I don’t want to be in Physical Therapy as I thought I’d want to be since my last post. I want to enter the political world and fight for those who have no voice. For those who want peace and safety in their lives. Even if it risks getting me and my family into danger. My family was never going to be safe anyway if I don’t fight for world peace so here I am - networking with all kinds of interesting figures and navigating between the forces that intertwine in the most complex ways in all planes of existence.
I’ve been working somewhat hard recently and my friends have been worried I’ll get burnt out quickly since I still have 2-3 more years of university to go before I get my Bachelors degree so they’ve been prodding me to have a relaxing day writing postcards and letters to my sisters and penpals amongst many other dalliances. I still fixed up a cover letter and resume to a Government Fellowship that was closing soon, so I suppose there was some productivity still today. I felt really excited about it, although I’m really disappointed that I didn’t make it to the previous government internship I was interviewed for. I locked up and couldn’t speak very well out of nervousness, haha. I need to work on that. It’s just a shame that I could’ve used that experience to grow my professional experience and make future internship/fellowship opportunities easier to gain.
I got accepted into a few universities including UC Riverside just these past few weeks. I’m really excited about transferring to one of them in a political major (Political Science, International Relations, or a similar field) and learning all about the different key aspects that will complicate international and domestic affairs. I’ve been conducting policy analysis with some of my friends and we’ve pioneered solutions to different issues that strike now and in the future, and it’s made me feel like I have a purpose in life. Even if I didn’t make a lot of money doing this, I would still do it because of how much potential there is in saving another person’s life. It’s a very underappreciated job. However, I only have a mind for constructive solutions for the future and I’d still do it because it makes me happy to know that I made a difference. I’ve been through my share of struggles and getting this far has been a point of pride that creates a perpetual perseverance that feeds itself when I help broaden the solutions to political problems. I also have a fiercely ethical “civilian” perspective (including a victim/minority viewpoint that enhances my emotional intelligence to a degree) that helps my friends understand how others may react to certain actions and policy ideas. I’m definitely not as awesome as I made myself sound like though as the brainstorming was a group effort, lol.
I will also be minoring in Mandarin Chinese after I transfer and taking the steps to learn that rigorously difficult language right now by using language learning apps in preparation. I wanted to learn Russian too, but I figured I could always learn Russian on my own time since it’s easier. I really want to help be part of the bridge that solidifies a sustainable positive relationship between the USA, China, and Russia. Things will be very different in the future, so it’s imperative that I figure out how to better these relations so everyone can be safe in this world. There’s a huge chance I’ll go to UC Riverside since they have a class called, “Post-conflict Justice and Reconciliation,” and I really want to take it to learn alternative justice theories. There’s one policy idea that my friends and I have poured time and effort on with those concepts in mind, and I really want to take a whole class on it to saturate myself in the different methodologies one can use to achieve restorative justice. As a constructivist, I want to establish norms of forgiveness since humanity has quite a ways to go before we finally wipe out as a species. If we cling to our victimhood and lash out uncontrollably without regard for how it affects those around us, our self-important self-satisfaction will be the only thing achieved.
We’ve ALL hurt each other. But Whataboutism and a defeatist conclusion on the evils of humanity will not bring an end to the suffering.
We just have to forgive.
One day we will have the ability to UNDERSTAND each other. Laugh together. Build together. Bond together. And HEAL together. We are a changing, continuous force - not an inevitability. Let’s not resign humanity to an early end when there’s still so much more good left to fight for. Of course, it will definitely take time to adjust to each and every situation that arises - just don’t be afraid to be corrected or grow.
I believe in you all.
Well, I wonder where I will go for my graduate studies. I am hopeful of completing an advanced degree, but I’ll make do without it if I get a good job that doesn’t require it. I suppose I’ll just miss discussing with my friends about the things I learned in college after it’s all over. However, if I can actually get a job doing that sort of work, maybe it’ll just be a little different after that.
[My boyfriend got me a TWSBI Eco Persian Green pen last night. I love fountain pens!]
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