Not Losing Sleep Over Keith [Friends Only Entry] Friday, December 06, 2002
When you believe in something so completely you begin to see things that aren't true. You begin to make excuses for it when it goes astray or it faults in someway. That's how I was with Keith. However, not anymore. I seriously don't care what happens to him. He's just as big of a loser as his brother. I should have known, but again, I believe in people until they mess up or prove themselves something different than what I thought they were. It's not that big of a deal. I am not the one that is wrong. It's him. Keith doesn't have a real job. He's beginning to be an alcoholic. He is unreliable. He's untrustworthy. He's selfish. I can finally see all of this. Yes, I did love him. Yes, I did want to be with him. That's because he showed me everything that I wanted to see. This is not my fault. Just because I believe in people doesn't make me wrong. It just makes me a better person than some people.
I don't lead people on. I don't lie to people. I don't cheat on people. I tell people the truth and not just what they want to hear. I am so different than Keith. That's why him and I won't ever be together. He's just not what I want.
The only thing that bothers me about this whole thing is the fact that he doesn't care that I don't want him anymore. If he had truly cared about me then he would feel bad. However, he doesn't feel bad so neither should I. However, because I was raised with compassion, I do feel bad. However, I won't feel that bad for that long. He's not worth losing sleep over.
Her
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