Why Jackson? in Trouble

He is the meanest and one of the most hottest people I know.Sometimes he can be really sweet, but I wouldn't want to let your guard down. Because Jackson will kick you when your down. I hate liking him but its not like you can just stop liking someone. I wrote a letter to Morgan in the back of the book that we are writing together. It says that I cant deal with always being in her shadow. I still want to be friends but not if I keep being treated like dirt. I love Morgan I do. But I cant stand being around someone that makes me feel melancholy. Now I am wondering if Morgan is a true friend. Everyone likes her and then they tease me and call me ugly compared to her. Just why?