The struggle is real. I think I am dealing with seasonal depression. It’s hard when it’s so dark outside all of the time. The day time is short and I work during daylight hours. So… it creeps in slowly.
I don’t have a bad life by any means but that chemical imbalance is a hard thing to reason with.
I’m struggling really badly with weight loss and attempting to lose weight. I feel defeated and my body isnt young anymore. It requires a lot of hard work to get even a pound off and very little ‘bad’ eating if you will to gain weight.
I visited my nurse practitioner to seek help with my weightloss issues and she berated me. It was an awful experience and I felt absolutely defeated. I told her how I hired a personal trainer and I’m logging what I eat. She ripped all of it apart. She said she thinks I’m wasting my money with having a personal trainer and that my trainer wasn’t doing me any favors. She told me the only way I would lose weight is by eating no more than 50 carbs a day. So… pushing keto and low carb.
I must have looked dumbfounded because she then tried to be reassuring and said “I get it, I struggle too. I have to run a marathon this weekend and my pants wont zip up. So I get how hard it is.” This woman is cardboard thin and probably never been over weight in her life. If I were to roll down my window in my car she would flap out like a McDonald’s napkin. She doesn’t get it. Not at all. I cried… I went to her for help and all she did was make me feel stupid and helpless.
So now I can’t shake that mindset. I can’t seem to buckle down on my food or get motivated. I feel like I’m spiraling and I’m not even sure what to do to get myself out of it. It feels like its bleeding into everything else.
I don’t think I have good self worth… I am just lost. All tips tricks and things welcome.
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